Hi! I just joined and someone told me about your post. My mom was murdered too by my dad. Except my dad commited suicide right after. It has been 10 years and honestly, it hasn't gotten any easier. I have dealt with the fact that my mom is gone, but what I can't deal with is the fact that she is dead because of my dad. One thing that I have been wanting is a reason why. I will never know why he did it. I was home at the time and he murdered her and my step dad while I was upstairs on the phone. What a coward! I too don't have a lot to remember my mom by. Right after she died, my brother's girlfriend moved in and got rid of all my mom's things. I wanted to smell all her clothes and wanted things to stay just like they were. I think she thought she was helping, but I was so upset. I totally know what you are going through. MandyF