hI I LOST MY BROTHER 5 MONTHS AGO JANUARY 1ST 2006 IT WAS THE LAST NEW YEAR I WILL EVER CELEBRATE, IT WILL NOW BE A DAY TO MISS HIM. HE DIED IN HIS SLEEP A ACIDENTAL OVER DOSE OF DRUG AT AGE 40 AND LIVING LIFE HAPPY A MAN WHO HAD EVERY THING A MAN CAN ASK FOR. HE WAS MY HERO AND MY OLDER BROTHER AND A FATHER FIGURE TO MY SON . ITS BEEN SO HARD TO GO THRU LIFE EVERY DAY I FEEL LIKE I AM NAKED AND EVERY ONE AROUND ME SEE RIGHT THRU ME. AND HOW CAN A THE LOSE OF A BROTHER DEATH MAKE ME FEEL VULNERBLE AND INSECURE AND AFRAID? HAS ANY ONE FELT THIS WAY AND I FEEL THE PAIN WILL NEVER GO AWAY. I SAY EVERYDAY IF I COULD HAVE ONE MORE DAY WITH MY BRO I WOULD HUG HIM AND NEVER LET GO.I AM AFAID MY DAY WILL COME TO SOON AND I AM NOT READY I HAVE A 7 YEAR OLD BOY HE NEEDS ME. ANDA OLDER SISTER I NEED HER SHE IS MY ROCK AND MY HEALING HEART SHE IS GOING THRU ALL MY PAIN WE ARE TOGETHER WE SSAY WE ARE BROKEN BECAUSE OUR MISSING LINK IS GONE . MY FAMILY HAS FALLEN APART AND I CAN NOT EVEN FIX THIS. WELL IF ANY ONE OUT THEIR CAN GIVEME INSIGHT TO ALL THIS HURT I WOULD GRATFUL TO YOU. I JUST NEED TO KNOW I AM GOING THRU THIS OKAY . I NEVER CRIED SO MUCH IN MY LIFE. THANK YOU FOR READING GOOD BLESS.
