Hi everyone, I am in need of support and advice right now. 3 days ago I put flea treatment on my cat without even thinking that if I put it somewhere she coud reach (I put it on her back and neck) she would lick it and get sick. She has not come home since then and I have had to start feeding her 4 week old kittens milk replacement and stimulate the to go to the bathroom. I feel such imense guilt over Molly being gone and it is even worse that my family is very unsuportive. My husband keeps trying to tell me what he thinks I want to hear (that someone took her in and she is fine) but I know she has past on because she NEVER leaves for this long and always stays close by. When I tell him that she is gone he maks me feel as if my feelings don't mean anything because she was "just an animal." My sister deals with things by joking and she even said to me last night that "If she had accidentaly killed me she would have taken care of my daughter too" because I have been taking care of the kittens. This feels terribl I keep thinking that I could have just followed the directions on the box and not been so stupid, or at least could have kept her in the house to keep an eye on her, but I didn't and now she is gone and her kittens still need her. I can not stop crying, I haven't slept at night and I keep thinking of her alone and suffering or dead under some bush. I can't even take it anymore and it is just that much harder that I feel it is my fault. I have pictures of when we first got her a year ago and she was 6 weeks old and my daugher was about 4 months old and I always thought they would grow up together. My daughter would kiss her and pull her tail and Molly wold just sit and tae it purrig away as she got her constant beating from our overly loving toddler. We have decided to keep 2 of the kittens and give one to my mother in law and hope to find a good home close by for the last kitten. Everything I read says you shouldn't jump right into getting a new pet but I feel we were left without a choice, we are all attatched to the kittens. I just hope that I don't forever feel that I killed our first family pet and remember this sad time through our new kittens. Anyways if anyone read this thank you for listening as I am having a tough time dealing with this alone.
