Jarod

I wish I can just tell my dad how much he meant to me. I feel like I never said it enough but I know that he knew. It would be great just to see him one last time. "Dad thank you for all of your support, your guidance, your love, and for all the great times and memories, I love you very much."

Erin, I lost my mom in 2005 and to answer your question yes you will go back to feeling like "your self" again. However, the grief will never "go away" and obviously you will always miss your mother. I still have images of my mom in the hospital and remember our final conversations. Now I am experiencing this horrible grief all over again. I lost my dad (March, 2) of this year. He was such a great dad and my best friend. It seems much harder this time around and I'm not sure why. Maybe it is because I have now lost both of my parents much earlier then I anticipated. Everything that you described is exactly what I am feeling. You're not alone. The last five months have seemed like a blur to me. I have been in total "Zombie" mode and seem to be just going through the motions. I am very sorry for your loss. It gets better, Good luck and hang in there.