I so know what you are talking about. I am fine all day but about 9pm every night the water works start. My husband and has been truly understanding but things are different now. The only person I want to hold me is my DAd who is no longer here. Granted the days of sitting on his lap and complaining about his whiskers was over 30 years ago. I do miss my fathers hugs, him yelling at me for driving to fast, saying you are too young to be tired. He was hard of hearing and when I would call home, he would answer the phone and I would always ask to speak to Mom becuase she was the one who could hear better. I wished I would have been more patient. I know my Father was very proud of my accomplishments and loved me so much. I do miss him telling me those things. Take care of yourself and give yourself time. My dad died April 10th and I pay myself a dollar every morning if I do not cry the night before. He would of got a kick out of that. By the way, In 10 days I have only paid myself $3. HAHA