Matt Makaha

This was the very first song that I wrote about my Dad--I uploaded this a few weeks ago to YouTube, I think I might have posted the broadjam link before, but now it's on YouTube too. Here's the link on YouTube:

Well, after I said I wasn't going to write anymore songs about my Dad, I wrote another song about him and I just uploaded the song/video to YouTube. I thought I was done writing songs about him, but I guess I wasn't. I guess he was just such a huge influence on me, Well, here's the music video, the song is called "Beautiful to Me":

Here's another song I wrote about my Dad, it's an older song that I don't know if it's as good as the others I've posted, but here it is. On a side note, I took one line from this song and put it in the song in post #9 ("I'll See You In My Dreams") because I thought it sounded better in that song, but I dont know.... Anyway, here's the song, it's a female singer I hired on this, Tammy Pierce-- "Where You'd Be Today": http://www.broadjam.com/player/player.php?play_file=5366_602349

@ enna, fae, and Marty Thanks for the words of encouragement! I'm working on another song about my Dad.

Geez....Thanks you two!! It makes me feel good when someone can get something out of my music. Just recently, on a video game forum I visit occasionally (actually it's a video game sales forum, yes sales!! LOL), I happened to post my video "You Never Told Me how To Say Goodbye" in the music section, and one member sent me a message and told me that my video brought out feelings about his Dad that he didn't know were still there, since he and his Dad had a falling out and hadn't talked to each other in 3 years. And now he was thinking about calling him (he said he still wasn't sure if he'd call but he's thinking about it now). That really stunned me, I didn't even know something like that is even possible, that a music video could possibly get a father and son to reconcile, but when I told my sister about it, she said my Dad would be proud of me. After the comment from that guy, I wonder if there are other father/sons out there that my video could possibly help too, in reconciliation.....

if anyone is interested, I made a new Facebook page with the topic of music videos about Dads, where people who visit the page can post links to their favorite music videos. The link is below and the page is called "I Miss My Dad." I have a few videos on there--two of them are videos of songs I wrote, and two are videos from artists/singers I like. Here's the link: http://www.facebook.com/pages/I-Miss-My-Dad/213395425462521

Thanks!! I corrected the link in my previous post directly above, because I deleted the original version of the video and re-uploaded the video, so the new correct link is above. I also explain it in the above post at the beginning. Sorry about that....

(updated/EDIT: sorry, I had to re-upload the video after I deleted the original, the correct link is below. BTW, I use a pseudonym on YouTube because of one of my other videos that is slightly controversial and a co-worker is in that video too incognito, but on this re-uploaded version of this video, my real name is in the copyright info at the beginning of the video. Well hey, many artists use a pseudonym, Lady Gaga, Kid Rock, Bruno Mars--those aren't their real names :-) I just finished a music video of another song I wrote about my Dad. Yes, another one, maybe I write tooooooo many songs about him, but he was such a huge influence in my life, and now over 3 years since he passed away, I still think of him every day. I think this is one of my better songs about loss. Anyway, I started writing this song about a month or so after my Dad died, but I put it aside and left it unfinished until recently, when I decided to finish it. But the passage of time has helped me move along with my life, although I still miss him after all this time, so I had to look at the feelings that I wrote down on a piece of paper soon after I lost him, just so I could finish this song. To help with the loss of someone you love, you might try writing down your feelings in a diary. Writing songs was therapeutic for me, which was basically writing my feelings down on paper. Anyway, here's the (updated/corrected) link to the music video on YouTube: I hope in some way this video and my other videos help people in the greiving process....

I made a female version of my song in the post directly above ("I'll See You In my Dreams") She sings my song better than me. female version of "I'll See You in My Deams": http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PeN3P46jhF8

Well here's a music video of another song I wrote about my Dad. Just like the second song that I added in a previous post above, this is going back in time a little, because this song was written only a month after my Dad died, so the feelings of loss are stronger, whereas the first song in the first post above was written about a year after he died, so there was some healing from the passage of time. This song does not specify if it's about a mother or father, it could be either or it could be about a grandfather or grandma actually. well here's the song 'I'll See You In My Dreams': The imagery in the song is from what I would see when I would visit him at the nursing home.

@ Babypod, MartyT and pmpupdamike, Your welcome! I think it's helpful to write down one's feelings in a journal or log, for me it was writing lyrics (which is kinda like writing a journal) that helped me cope and heal.

Thanks again, and I also just posted the video of another song I wrote about my Dad, but I changed the story around to make it about the loss of a mother. I had written 3 songs already about my Dad by the time I started writing this, so I decided that for a change, I'd write it about a mother instead, but the feeling of loss is the same. Here's the link: It's going back in time a little bit, because the song in the first post above was written about one year after my Dad passed away so there was some healing in the song, whereas this song has a little more sadness because it was written a couple of months after my Dad passed away.

Your welcome!! But for me, taking care of my Dad when he became disabled was more a reflection of the kind of man he was. If he was not a kind, loving, compassionate and responsible father, I probably might not have taken care of him because that bond probably wouldn't have been there, so when people used to say they respect me for taking care of him, I just say no, it's really about what a great man he was.

your father sounds a lot like how my dad was, a contributor not a taker, and to me he was the most awesome person on the planet, and I felt the world is just not the same anymore. But more time has passed since he passed away, it's been over 2 years. At least for me, time has helped me heal, but I do still miss him. But I've been able to laugh and have fun, which is what he would have wanted, and so I think that time does help things to get better.

Tina, I'm sorry about your loss. It's been over 2 years since my Dad died, and I still think of him everyday. For me, since my Dad died in April 2009, sometimes when I see dates, I think of the date as either before my Dad died, or....after my Dad died. And sometimes I ponder the nature of time itself. It's like that poem I saw someplace online, I think it was called 'the dash' or something like that. That the dates of birth and death don't really matter, but that dash in between the dates that matter--when they were alive. For me, it wasn't that the world had stopped, but the fact that the world kept on going is what bothered me. I was like 'how can the world go on, my Dad is dead!!!' Before my Dad died, I thought the world would end when my Dad died. But I found that the world doesn't end, and that life goes on, almost relentlessly. It's also a potent reminder that the world will still go on after I'm dead, for sure. The funny thing is, I don't fear death anymore, because maybe when I die, I get to see my Dad again, because this world is not quite the same anymore without him. I mean I don't want to suffer, like die in a fire or drown or something, but for death itself, I'm okay with it. I hope that doesn't sound too weird, but that's what it's like for me.