I lost my 17 year old son January 20, 2009 to CML (Chronic Mylogenous Leukemia with the Philadelphia chromosome)...It is a rare form of Leukemia that typically effects 40 to 60 year old men. He was diagnosed in August, recieved a bone marrow transplant from his 11 year old brother who was a perfect match, yet the Leukemia took him 5 weeks after the transplant!. On his death bed 5 hours before he died, he promised to visit me in my dreams. Lately, I am not sleeping very well. I awake often during the night feeling almost like I cannot breathe. I take anti anxiety medication for when I am having trouble coping, which lately is ALOT! I have read books on grief, and losing a child, but I I just dont know if I am dreaming about him, and not remembering him, or if he thikns I am still not ready! Has anyone else had this? Is it normal not to dream of the lost child? I am very depressed lately, I am missing him so much!
Ann
