Mary,
thanks - I'm finding this site helpful to read how others are handling things. I do want to find some form of group/counselor, but right now there is all the "business" that happens after the funeral is finished. I'm finding all the legal pieces taking over my stress right now, and would rather spend the time grieving and working through my loss. My husband never finished his will nor did he change his beneficiaries over like he was going to when we got married. I get so mad at myself that I didn't follow up, but I was spending my time and my head was in the process of preparing to lose him while praying that he would get better.