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Domonique

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About Domonique

  • Birthday 10/14/1988

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  • Date of Death
    10/28/2011
  • Name/Location of Hospice if they were involved:
    JFK

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    Female
  • Location (city, state)
    Palm Springs, Fl
  1. I'm 23yrs old, and I just recently lost my father on 10/28/11. He was only 45yrs old, he had been sick for the last 6 months and we didn't know how serious it was until he was rushed to the hospital last month. The doctors and nurses at the hospital couldn't figure out what was wrong with him and had to perform a tracheostomy to help him breath since he was such a large man. He was at JFK for a month before they moved him to another hospital to start his physical therapy, he was only there for 2 weeks and was able to talk, walk, and write all the things he couldn't do the prior month. They took the trache out a week after he was there and he went home the following week. He wasn't even home a full week, when he had complications with the trache and couldn't breathe. I watched my father die on his bathroom floor and there wasn't a damn thing I could do about it. I'm just so angry that he was taken away from me so soon and that I couldn't tell him how much I loved him just one more time. I know everyone says this, but my dad was the best father ever, even when he got on my everlasting nerve I loved him lol. He was my best friend and any problem I brought to him he had a way to fix it. There was no problem he could not solve. I just can't seem to cry at all, I cry the day he died, and at his funeral. But now I can't seem to produce any tears, I feel numb, angry, sad, lost, and disconnected from everything. I just don't know why I can't seem to let it out, I've always believed that crying was healthy and now I can't seem too. Is there something wrong with me?
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