Hello, this is my first post and I am thankful to have found this site.
My husband and I met and fell in love 20 years ago after his first wife died of breast cancer, leaving him with two daughters...ages 10 and 11...I was divorced with 2 children...a daughter, 5 and a son, 2. We married and 6 months later, my son was diagnosed with Duchenne Muscular Dystrophy..a progressive, life shortening, incurable muscle wasting disease. We've coped with that all these years. My husband's closest brother died last year after some sort of freak accident at work which may have involved an undiagnosed heart issue. My husband's sister's son who was 16 at the time, was diagnosed with osteosarcoma. Then, my sister who had been in an unhappy marriage, divorced her husband. Six months ago, he died in a motorcycle accident near my house. My sister found happiness with a new man and they were to be married 2 weeks ago. He committed suicide one month ago. Now, my nephew who has the osteosarcoma is at home, under hospice care, dying. One of my daughters just told her husband that she wants a divorce.
I am the shoulder, the ear, the "strong" one for everyone in these situations. Usually I can handle it...but we just can't seem to catch our breath after one tragedy before another one hits!
I haven't been able to cry, but I feel like I am on the verge. I feel like when I am home, around my son, I have to be strong for him. I took food over to my sister-in-law's house and saw my nephew..who was unresponsive..and I was just numb. I just wish I could have a big, heart-wrenching cry and get it over with, but it's not happening.
Sorry if this is rambling, but that's kind of where I am right now. I've always been strong, and I know that I'll get through this, but this is just too much!