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aloneinDixie

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  1. Susan, I can relate with you,as I lost my Soulmate in Nov. and it is VERY raw.We too did everything together and so now thinking of going off,leads to to thinking of all the times we did that. We could talk for hours about nothing,just lying in each other's arms. Now I sit in this house all alone,as the kids go do their thing on the weekends and are in school thru the week.I go to work,then come home and just think of all the times we laid here and talked. I look at our closet and pray that she will come back and put on her clothes that she loved so much. You have a lot of friends here. I know,as they have helped me too. It is a long hard road,and with faith and friends and loved ones we will all make it. God Bless Donald
  2. Hi Theresa, I know how you feel in your pain. My wife was diagnosed with Luekemia on June 21,2011 and Passed away on November 14,2011. I thank everyone here for their support and compassion. I was angry and well sometimes still am,and the pain is there as well. I know I have to move on for our kids,and for me. My wife made me promise her that should something happen that I would not be stay at home alone. I really at times want to forget that I promised her that you know? You will be ok,and just know that he is better and waiting in Heaven. I know my beloved is waiting and I can't wait till my time here is done and we can rejoice and be together again. Take care and you are in my prayers too.
  3. Oh it is finally here. CHRISTmas.. I went to work last night and came home and thought I was fine. I ate then went to sleep. I got up this afternoon,came in the Living room and LOST it. All the emotions of knowing my soulmate and love of my life is gone hit me like it did a month ago. I got the kids some gifts,and I think about last year how we (Trish and I) would wrap them together and smile waiting for them to come home from Mtgy. Now I sit here looking at gifts alone and crying like a stupid baby. I think I am doing better then wham!! I fall right back to crying uncontrollably again. I Thank each and everyone of y'all for your endearing words of support and Love. I Thank you and Love from the bottom of my Heart. I know Trish is not hurting and is in Heaven with our Lord and our Families waiting. It is a comfort knowing she can't hurt anymore,but honestly it does not take my hurt away or the pain of missing her so much. Thank you again.. I wish all a very Merry CHRISTmas...
  4. Thank you so much. We are trying to manage Christmas kinda going at it like always. My Daughter is with my Ex-wife and My son is with his Grand Parents. I am working so we just try to move past the holidays. I have fought to NOT put up the tree,but am doing it now. It was her favorite thing to do,so I can't stand to not have the tree up. I know I will be a puddle as I look at it,but I do it out of LOVE for my Beloved wife. She meant so much and I want to honor her,and keep some of our traditions alive.I made her Turkey sandwich Thursday night after Thanksgiving like she always did. So,I will keep the tree tradition alive for her as well. Even when My lil girl goes off to College My Son and I will keep it up and going. I hope she is watching and smiling,cuase I really am trying to keep this going,but OMG I am so lonely and want to be with her so bad.
  5. Thank you all for your kind words. Our kids are 17 and 12.
  6. My wife,my best friend,my soulmate passed away on Nov.14th of this year. I have cried some,but I know I am still in shock. I get up and start to call the Hospital to check on her,then it hits me STUPID!! She is gone... I shed a tear and then stare at her pic,then look at her on the Nightstand. In her urn,and wish that God would take me too. She had Luekemia,and had septic shock. She was in the hospital to have a bilateral amputation of her legs. She made it through having her feet removed,but she was too weak when the Drs. decided to go ahead and finish with the follow up surgery. She never woke up after the second surgery. 4 days later she was dead,and my world has come to a halt. We have 2 kids that are so devastated. I know I must be strong for them but I can't be something I am not. I am shattered,broken,and so wishing that God would just please take me home so I could be with my Wife my love. I am in so much pain I do not know if I will make it thru this season... It hurts so bad. I miss my best friend so so much.. Latricia Renea Patterson 1966-2011 My Loving Wife Rest in Eternal Peace.
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