AprilAnnMcCue

Hi my name is April. I completely understand how you feel. I lost my father 5 years ago, then tragically lost my mom in January, and my brother Billy was killed on his birthday in April. It all happened so fast. The loneliness starts to eat at you. No sleep, can;t eat, I can't even look at family pictures because I am that broken. The only reason I get up everyday is because of the medicine I'm on. I have a lot of faith and maybe that is what helps me too. Everyone says it gets easier, but it hasn't for me and I don't see when it will. This crazy world, I can't stand it. The most important thing to do is to try to think positive, no matter how hard it is. In all of this, you'll find comfort and believe me everyone handles it their own way! I wish I could say more but I'm actually seeking help on here too.

That;s exactly why i came on here and finally found something good. I've been depressed for too long and at times i find myself believing everyone forgot about my brother and some guy is walking out there free. It's just not fair. At times i find myself blaming myself for all the tragedy. I wish more people on here could write me, it so helpful getting insight from other's that lost family as well.

December 10th was 8 months since my brother Billy passed away. Now I know most of you know, closure is so important in any death for the family. But my family has not received anything, yet. April 10th, 2011. My 28 year old brother was walking home after a night out for his birthday, he was struck by a vehicle and left to die in the middle of the street. (It was his birthday when he passed) This man who killed my brother, went and hid his car and went home like any other night out. The next morning his lawyer called the police and were directed to the truck. My brother's blood was identified on the car 6 months after. This city sucks by the way! I dont know how or when this bastard will be arrested or even how much time he will get. It's heartbreaking, I can't look at pictures or hear anything about my brother with out getting completely emotional. I have 2 siblings left. Me and billy were so close, he was my best friend. My provider after my mom passed in January, he helped me through everything. He didn't deserve this, no one does and not only do me and my family deserve closure, my brother Billy does too! Now the home that I was raised in, is being taken away, I have to live in my aunt's home where they do there best to make me feel better, but it'll never be the same. I work hard everyday to make what little i get paid and i am a full time student in college. Nothing stopped me from accomplishing anything, not even this sick man! Im not sure what i can do left. I can't loose my home too after so much loss. I need to somehow come up with 5,000 to get the utilities back on! Does anyone know who can help. Thanks everyone for taking the time to read this as well. It means a lot. I haven't given up yet and I never will!