It's Christmas time and I lost my father to cancer on December 26, 2009. It was so hard loosing him as I was very close to both my parents. To make matters worse, my mother had a minor car accident and lived 2 months after the accident and I lost her on June 1, 2010. Not even 6 months after loosing me dad. The doctors don't understand why she died as the accident was minor. She was in the hospital a few days, then we had to put her in a nursing home for physicial therapy. The nursing home was horrible, so we brought her home in a week, and she stayed with my sister so the PT could go to her home, but she just never even really walked again. As my parents had been married 58 years, we feel she just didn't want to go on without my dad. I have so many regrets especially with my mother. I keep thinking if I would only have spent more time with her after loosing my dad, if I could have got her talked into moving in with us, etc. I promised my dad that I would take care of mom and feel that I failed him too. It isn't getting any better for me either. I still cry daily and all I can think about is all the regrets I have. I try to think about all the wonderful times we had, but mostly all I can think about is all the regrets. I feel I failed them both as a daughter and there is nothing I can do now. I use to talk to my mom several times a day and miss that so much. I just wish it would start to get easier....Holidays are always worse, when I watch a program where someone is doing something with their mother, I cry for hours, so I try not to watch Christmas programs anymore. I can't talk to my sisters to anyone about this as they weren't very close to my parents, but it helps writing it. My mom was truly my best friend and I miss her so much.