I lost my husband of 24 years in oct. 2011. His name was Keith and 51 yrs old. My best friend. We were together 24/7. I helped him
with his daily needs and running a business from home. He was my every thing!
I never knew that I could hurt,ache and miss so deeply. I'm having a really hard time wanting to push on. The anxiety and panic seem
to take over. I would do almost anything to be with him again.
My family support is awesome and I do appreciate them but it does not feel like it's enough. All I want is my life as I knew it and
the security,love and support of my husband again. It still feels like a really bad dream. I was not suppose to be widowed at 45.
I have not moved things on his desk, clothes are still on the chair in the bedroom. It's too hard to move things. I feel like I'll
lose him more.
Why do I feel like a burden to my friends and family? Their lifes have gone on and all I can do is cry, talk too much or act like I'm
okay. I needed to talk to others who really understand.
Thanks for listening,
RAZ
