My only sister died in her sleep on Monday 1/16 of an unexpected heart attack. My best friend came over to tell me. I just stared at her because I didn't understand what she was saying. OMG, how am I going to live without my sister? I have had to plan the funeral, write the obituary, talk to the soloist, pick out her casket without any help and I have never even BEEN to a damn funeral. Oh God I can't stand it. Her 3 children come in tonight and our brother comes in this afternoon. I don't even think I can get thru the funeral which is this coming Monday. I don't even want to see her kids much less talk to them because they are all grown-up little shits. The coroner told me that my sister died of something they call a "widow maker" because there are no symptoms and, thank God, no pain. She just took a shower, got into bed, went to sleep and woke up in Heaven. I want to go to her now and I am counting the days until I can. I can't live without her, I can't. I'm so tired, I wish I could just go to bed, go to sleep and wake up in Heaven. How do I live without her, how???????????
