Its been four months now since the police came to door and told me you were dead. The way you died, i cant ever bear the thought of you lying on the train tracks. as each day goes by i miss you more and more. there is nothing that hurts me more than to know i hurt you, thinking of all the million ways i could have prevented it. i am loosing my mind. i think of you every second of every minute, every hour of every day, every day of every month. i search for you everywhere i go. i feel you near me but yet i dont. the thot of you gone forever is more than i can bare. i just try to get through each moment, tho i dont want to learn to live without you. i have no choice. its all my fault. i love you still and always.
