Hi, I just want to say that I am in disbelief that I am about to write this. My mother passed away on May 5, 2012. What gets me is even typing or muttering these words is just disrespectful and just cruel to say this about her. I loss my grandfather but his death was sudden and then we buried him. My mother I was in the hospital when she took her last breath (ugh I can't believe it) I am grown with a family of my own but I am thinking about her all the time. We talked everyday and it is super duper hurting me. When I get to that point and realize she is gone I feel like I can't breath and such heaviness of pain. I try to think about the good times. I am conditioning myself NOT to cry. I feel like I can't talk about her share her memory with others. Don't want to and just feel like nobody cares or they are tired of me being sad. I NEED to hear her voice and I can't. My range of emotions have gone from extreme numbness, sadness to anger. My children keep me busy and being around others well I wish I weren't except just for my family. I don't know what to do without her. I miss her so much I really do......... First time doing this on here thanks for letting me talk
