Hugs to you today Lina. You are not going insane. At least I hope not because I am right there with you. It has been 4 months for me. I was OK for a week or two and didn't cry much - now it is back and I cried the whole way to work today. It is SOOO hard for the kids but I think it is easier to have them at home than to be by myself right now. I try to keep things "normal" for them and only fall apart once I am alone.Hang in there...you are nt alone.