lorikelly

Shelley I have not posted in a long time but I really understand about missing your mom. My mom will be gone 4 yrs on July 3rd and i still say i can't beieve it has been this long since i have her face, kissed her or heard her voice. I go to sleep at night and put thoughts of her in my head so i can dream of her. Some days the pain feels like it just happened and then other day i can walk this journey and feel ok. I think the missing never goes away we love them so much and for so long that it would be impossible for us to forget. Take a day at a time, each day will bring a little more healing to your heart. Lori

thank you so much. i am hoping that God will help me find away. Right now i am going through the grief and this journey as we all know is so hard. I am taking one day at a time.

Hello I have not been on in a long time. i first started coming here when i lost my mom on July 3rd, 2006. I just found out my brother died. We have not spoken since my mom passed. I had wrote a long post about my family and how we don't speak when i was grieving my mom. My brother died 1yr ago and i just found out from someone. I feel so sad and the pain of the grief is so overwhelming. i am afraid to feel that way again. he did not want me to know he was dying or to come see him . I just can't believe he left this world with so much anger towards me. I gave up my anger, forgave him and continued to pray for him everyday and hoped one day we would be a family again. Now that will never happen. i can't change what has happened but i am not sure how to go on from here. I have 3 other siblings and none of us speak . I want to some how reach out to them so that this does not happen again. Even if they don't want a relationship i think i need to let them know how i feel. they don't even talk amongst themselves. My heart is broken and I don't want to be on this journey again. The pain is to great. Thanks for listening. Lori

Maylissa i am so sorry for what you are going through. i don't have any answers i just can't believe it. my thoughts are with you. lori

Oh Teny, i am so sorry that you were not able to find some comfort there. it sounds like a beautiful place. You have to remenber he is always with you where ever you go. i wish i could take your pain away, i can feel it in your words. all my love lori

Derek That is great. i know how hard that was for you. lori

Teny I hope you are feeling better from the pneumonia. You have to keep on fighting , you are meant to be here for your friends and children. i know it is hard to see that but you have a purpose and plan and thats why you are still here. take one moment at a time and keep going, we are all here for you. lori

Wilma i believe you did what was best for your mom, she wasn't mad at you just confused . my mom was home with me and then she went into the hospital then hospice and died 5 weeks later for so long i blamed myself. i thought if i had done a better job and she stayed home she would of lived. i have to come to realize (after many hours of therapy, sleepless nights and tears) that i could not have prevented her death. only God can control that. my heart goes out to you b/c i remenber that feeling and somedays i still beat myself up about it. take one day at a time and remenber that your mom loved you and was thankful that you helped her. lori

i agree i say that time was my black hole, i could barely crawl out of it. i thought i was never going to survive. that pain was the worst. lori

I am not looking forward to it this yr. for some reason it feels harder then last. i have my own boys which will help me alot but i just want my mom. i love you mom forever. lori

My mom will be gone 20mos this may 6th and i was just saying the other night that it has been that long since i have seen her. mothers day feels like it will be even harder this yr then last. i think last yr people realized it was my first without her but now noone even asks or cares. i just can't believe it has been that long. i wait to see her again. lori

I went to your website and read everything. i cried the entire time. what a wonderful human being you are and jack also . through your writing i can feel the love that the two of you shared. you have touched my soul. i will order the book . thank you for sharing your journey with all of us. God Bless Lori

Where do i get the book? i would love to read it. lori

Shelly I think depression is different in everyone and how it effects there lives. i was on meds and did get off but that is not for everyone. i think if yu need the meds stay on them, there is nothing wrong with needing help. if you were diabetic or had a heart condition you would take them. talk your doctor and hopefully he is supportive and listens. lori

Sorry you are having such a miserable day, i can understand about some days being better then others. for me it has been 21 mos and still can go through the should of's , could of's , i have to tell myself to stop and move on to something else. sometimes this is easier then others. i am not sure when it really stops or if it ever does. i just take one day at a time, still and go from there. i hope tomorrow will bring a little bit of peace for you. lori