Hello, I buried my little brother (age 47) a week ago yesterday. He died suddenly in his sleep. I cannot seem to reach my emotions. My brain keeps switching channels when I think of him. I handled all the arrangements as my dad is 82 and ill. My mother died in 1995, so now it is just my dad and I. I am so tired and often feel feverish and ill. I continue to operate in a robot type fashison. How long before I get in touch with my emotions? Is my brain protecting me? Should I try to force getting in touch with my emotions or let it come in its own time. Does the longer it takes to catch up emotionally cause the connection to be more difficult and does it tend to be more explosive? Is this all normal? I have lost many loved ones but each time it is different. So far this has been the most physically exhausting experience of my life. I am afraid of what the emotional experience might bring about. I fear of losing control and not being able to handle my life day to day. I can barely hang right now. If anyone would be so kind as to help me with some of my questions, I welcome any comments. Donald
