Dear Anne, It has only been a few weeks since you lost your mom and I am so sorry. I am quite sure that nothing feels right for you... eating, sleeping, thinking, praying and even dreaming. Grief grips every aspect of your life. For me, once things settled down a bit, I began to feel my dad's presence in many ways including dreams. Actually, 4 months after he died, I had a dream in which I was upset with him for taking so long to come back and tell me what IT was like (Heaven)! It was the most incredible dream of my life. In regards to faith: I would say after my dad died, I really questioned everything. I felt completely ripped off by God. Here I am going about life for 40 years doing what I thought was the right thing and out of the blue on a sunny day in May, my dad drowned in our family's pond at the age of 62. It was the most freakish, unsuspecting, furthest thought from my mind and it happened anyway. I prayed for guidance in my own faith a lot. In 12 days, it will be one year since my dad died. I feel that my faith has definately returned but it is different. Please be patient with yourself and read what these loving and kind people have to say about so many topics on this forum. They have felt the kind of pain that you are experiencing right now and will help you without even knowing it, just like they did for me.