Thank you. Yea, thankfully I have an over abundance of support. Friends and family and extended family. They have all been surrounding me with their love and spending the night with me. Only two nights I have been alone, which I felt I needed too. They maybe didn't see it that way. I was his care taker and also exhaustion I have had to recoop from. A ton of family drama from his side prior to and is still lingering is more to handle of taking time from us when we were togther his last days and even now when I'm grieving. But I'm blocking it all. Thankfully I'm on the other side of the country from all of that! I have had a large amount of loss in my life. I have "self healed" before. I know this is different with the love of my life, my best friend. He brought so much happiness in my life and made me laugh every day. I will be going to a counselor in due time as other issues with past loss is re-surfacing as well. But I just can't stand the fact I will never see him, hear him or touch him. And my heart hurts that his life was cut so short and he was such a wonderful man, that this world is cheated without him in it. I am.
