I am sorry for your loss. I lost my daddy on December 10,2005. I lost one of my best friends who was also an ex, in 2000. I was so devastated crying and talking about him all the time. Now I feel as if something is wrong with me, my daddy is everything,I even did the 'hospice' side of the medical needs in his last days. I barely ever talk to anyone about my grief. Especially not my siblings or my mommy. I avoid it at all costs. When I do feel tears its always somewhere I can't..work, date..etc. I haven't reached out until now. He would have been 67 yesterday and now I can't seem to push the tears back as much. I am the youngest and only single child, I have my friends but as the words start coming out I feel like I sound cold.? I know I need to begin, my brothers always call my mom to talk and even cry, I am the most sensitive and I won't even listen to my mom. I am not married and have no children I feel cheated..'Dance With My Father Again'...says it all. I just don't want that gut wrenching pain I can't I almost refuse.