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nakirk19

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  • Date of Death
    12-17-2012
  • Name/Location of Hospice if they were involved:
    Ryan House, Phoenix AZ USA

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    Female
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    Phoenix, Az
  1. Dear Pumpkin, I hope you are feeling better. I have only dreamed of Tom once so far, and thank god it was a wonderful one. I wish it would happen more often, but I must be trying too hard. I know I carry guilt about continuing to go to work part time when Tom was in the hospital. Not knowing how soon he was going to be taken from me. I do believe guilt manifests itself in our dreams sometimes. Please know that you did all you could and we all wish there was more we could have done. Take care, I send you powerful wishes for awsome dreams! Nicole
  2. I have to tell you Mary & everyone who has taken the time to respond to my post, that I am so glad I found this place so soon. I had to downsize pretty quickly from a 3 bedroom house to a cute little 1 bed, one bath apartment. I struggled through that whole process (still have stuff in storage), but as tough as that was, coming home to this empty apartment every evening is worse.I had to keep some of Toms clothes and accessories, wedding ring, watch, belt buckle e.t.c. I really don't have the room, but just couldn't bare to part with them. In a frenzy I donated most of his clothes to Goodwill, now I find myself looking at strangers that are wearing similar clothing to Tom & wondering if they might be his.Is this normal? Boy, I still have along way to go! Thanks again everyone for listening to my ramblings. God bless, I've added all HOV Forum participants to my prayers at night. Nicole
  3. Hi Jan, thank you for your post. I too. believe Tom is right next to me, I find myself talking to him & asking his opinion all the time. I couldn't help but notice you are from the UK. I was born in the UK (am still a very British girl), but moved to the US 30 years ago. My family is very far away, but I talk with my Mum (my best friend) often. It is 6.30 am here now & I have to drag myself to work. Not much sleep last night, but I will carry on. Nicole
  4. Hi Anne, thank you for responding, it means alot. I believe this is going to be a healing place for me to be and for that I am very grateful. Time for me to try and sleep, it has not come easy since Tom's death, maybe tonight it will. God bless, Nicole
  5. Thank you Kay for sharing your loss with me. I am starting to be aware that this grief I am feeling will not go away soon, nor is it abnormal. Just today alone I have learnt that. I work Monday through Friday, so the evenings & weekends are the worst. This forum will help me with that, so grateful I found it. Nicole
  6. Mary, I am grateful for your advice and will allow my tears to flow as I have been holding them in. You are correct, it's exhausting! I am heading to Marty's site now. Thank You. Nicole
  7. Deborah, thank you for responding, I will continue to share. God bless, Nicole
  8. I lost my beloved husband & soulmate Dec. 17th 2012. We were married 17 yrs this coming March 14th. I am trying to keep busy, as that is the only way I feel I can get through my days. This is the first time I have posted anything but I wanted you all to know that just reading some of the posts in this forum has been of tremendous comfort to me. To not feel so alone in my feelings has been of enormous help. I cannot talk of my husband with friends yet without breaking down, so this forum gives me the chance to express how completely lost I feel without him. His diagnosis of cancer came out of the blue after a heart attack. We got through that only to be slapped with the cancer a couple of weeks later. It was very aggressive and he was gone within 2 months at age 59yrs. (he had only had 1 chemo treatment). In his last 2 months his only concern seemed to be me and how I was going to cope. You see, I was not understanding how I survived a brain aneurysm after 4 months in & out of hospital only for my husband to be taken from me 5 short years later. My Tom helped me with this by stating "Please don't be angry with God, He gave me another 5 years with you!" That sums up my beloved husband, his glass was always half FULL. I miss him terribly. I am very grateful for the time I had with him, I truly am, though it was not nearly long enough. I know we will be together again one day in heaven, but I can't help thinking it's not going to happen soon enough. I prayed hard in Church today that I be given the strength I need to get through this overwhelming sense of grief. Just to write these words down has helped. You are all so kind in your responses to others, thank you for listening! Nicole
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