So sorry for your loss, I know how difficult it is. That is why I am here, looking for someone to talk to who understands. I lost my husband to cancer after a long painful battle. He was only 48 and died on his 49th birthday. That was on Aug 30 , 2012. Then I lost my younger sister on Dec 18, 2012. I am having a very difficult time dealing with this. I cant go to church anymore. I would love any feedback. This is my first post and I hope I am doing it correctly.