cyscheer

Hello, Today is my sweetest Carolyn's memorial service. Carolyn had a lot of friends who loved her. I think there may be over a hundred people there. I was sitting here at the computer writing a eulogy for Carolyn. I realized this is the last thing I will do for her. I will be saying goodbye to her. I cried for a few minutes. i miss her hearing her voice. I want to thank everyone in this group for all the love and caring you have given me. cy

I want to thank you for your love and prayers. My sweet Carolyn just passed away Cy

I want to give you an update. Thanks for the thoughts love and prayers. Carolyn has said her goodbyes today with her eyes open a lot today. She didn't open them for 2 days. She can't smile but it seems like she tries to use her eyebrows and grunts when we talk to her. I love getting to see her blue eyes. I miss her voice. Her breathing is very fast. The hospice nurse says it is hard for the body to do that for long. I am very lonely. I miss my Carolyn Cy

Thank you all for your love and support. I feel lost because she can not communicate anymore. I look at our bed and feel so lonely knowing I won't have my darling next to me. How do I get over the loneliness. It seems to come in waves. It helps a lot writing to this group. Thanks for being there

Thank You Mary, I have gone to a beavement support group the last 2 weeks. They have been incredibly helpful loving and caring. I was happy I was invited to the group even though my wife has not passed. I knew early on I was not going to handle this well.

My wife is in the last stages of her life. She has stage 4 colon cancer, She is in hospice care here at home. I am not handling this very well. She is no longer able to swallow water or food. She has 1 or 2 days left. I am nearing a nervous breakdown. I don't know how l am going to get on with my life without her. The hospice social worker told me I should not be here. I am angry,sad, depressed and suicidal. If anyone has gone through this,any help would be helpful. Thanks Cy