Hi everyone I lost my Cheyenne May 13, 2003 she was 2 years old she had big blue eyes and the longest eye lashes I've ever seen she was a never ending supply of energy and a blessing to us all she died as a result of a toxic level of Zyprexa She woke up the morning she died she appeared fine and then at about 10:00 a.m. she told her daddy she was sleepy and wanted him to lay down with her he did when he thought she had fallen asleep he went to sneak out of bed with her only to find out she had stopped breathing he phoned me at work and our lives have forever been changed I have 2 older children that don't live with us so that makes things kind of hard to I worry about them and can't always know that they are ok they live out of state so it's kind of difficult there they seem ok I'm worried about Christmas right now I'm in counseling and I like most parents who have lost a child have good days and bad and not to long ago i really lost it I wouldn't even get out of bed I thought I was doing so well and then all the sudden pow like a hammer it hit me this grief I couldn't climb out from under I went to the Dr and he perscribed an antidepressent and a mood stableizer and I am feeling much better now I want to tell all of you not to be ashamed to ask for help this is not an easy journey it is hard and you owe it to yourself not to climb into a shell there is hope and there is help out there God bless all of you and God bless our little angels