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Shannon, welcome home and i pray that you get better, i know you will in time, but stay strong. God be with you Dan

Dear Mary, I echo what has been said above. Beautiful and comforting, THANK YOU!!!! Dan

Dear Anne, The poem is beautiful, the picture is beautiful. I reread the poem many times and also kept looking at the magical picture. You can imagine so, so many things, beautiful things. I want to thank you so much for posting this, it is very inspiring. Dan

Dear Mary, I finally have an appointment with a psychiatrist on July 20. It is a while to wait but we will try and be patient. I will let you know what happens. Dan

Mary, i saw the MD on mon. and he said he was going to get me a psychiatrist so i am waiting for his nurse to call me and let me know. Dan

Dear Mary, i am not going to do anything until i get to see a psychiatrist. Hopefully he will be informed on the matter. I have no one to ask anymore, Judy is not with me. She was pretty smart on meds, and i did rely on her advice. Dan

Dear Mary thank you so very much for the link to Pharmacy Group and Dr. Low Dog. That was very interesting and informative. I have been taking fluoxetine for years, i thought it was for anxiety, at least that was what the doctor told me. I bet i have been taking it min. about 12 yrs. To me it sounds better than Prozak, but what do i know about meds. The doctor says to take it , you take it,40 mg. daily. Dan

Dear Deborah, how lucky you are to have received the message that you did from Larry. I sure wish i would hear from Judy in some way. I really do not know what to look for, but if it would be anything like Larry's message i do think i would get that. Here is hoping and again congrats. Dan

Dear Mary and Marty, today [MON] I saw my doctor as to whether i was depressed or not, he seemed to think i was. He is going to find me a shrink [i don't know how to spell physi] well,you know. He said that he was first going to prescribe some med for me, but on second thought he was going to leave that up to the shrink. I totally agreed with him, thinking about what both of you had stated. Thank you again. He thought that i was depressed because i had been Judy's caregiver for 14 yrs. I had been that close to her, but i never would have had it any other way. We were very very close anyway.

Dear Mary, thank you for your response. That brought to mind how I promised my Judy time and again that i would be alright.For her just to let go, she had no more to do. What a brave soul i was while she was still with me [us] her family. What a big chicken i am now. I had no idea how tough this would be!!! She is not here to give me the strength that i need at this point. I don't think that i spoke about her liver disease. She had serosis of the liver, yet she was not a drinker at all. I heard one of her doctors say that it was an idiopathic liver disease because they were idiots and did not know the cause.

Dear Shannon Please take care of yourself and cry your heart out. I lost my Judy 3 mos. ago and the grief comes and goes but it never really leaves us. I pray for your recovery from your illness, that is in and of itself enough to fight. But be strong for LEO, he is watching from above and he would want nothing but the best for his Shannon. I am here for you anytime you want to talk or post. You are very much at the best website. Everyone IS here for you. I will pray for you.

Here it is saturday already, it has been a long long week. Usually the weekends were for kicking back and relaxing, but boy how things have changed. I think back to the time my beloved was in the hospital Dec.18 till Dec.25 2012. I vividly remember the doctor telling me that there was nothing more medically that they could do for my beloved JUDY. This was on Christmas day!! OUR daughter Sherri mentioned something about Hospice, which i had no idea about them. She called and a young man came to see us on behalf of Hospice, and I can thank GOD for that. Judy was moved that night and she did pretty good in their care. In my humble opinion i think that those people come very close to "walking on water". I have never in my life met better,caring,and loving people. This is what this website reminds me of very much. Judy would be sooo proud of my trying to be a part of this. Like i said before she meant everything, everything to me. She was my teacher, confident, lover, my strength, my all.

Dear Mary and Marty, Thank you both for your advice. I am going to start getting Marty's e-mail starting june 17 when our daughter gets home from vacation. That is strange to think grief can tear you apart like it does. i will be cautious with the doctor and not just start popping pills. I do not like meds anyway. Thank you both again, i do value your opinion. I will be posting again over the weekend. DAN

Dear enna,jan.c,mfh,and kay.c, thank you so very much for your consideration, it means so much at this time. i did join marty's e-mail class and i am looking forward to it. When i did read your posts, i bet i used 2 or 3 tissues per post to wipe the tears. It really got to me, the love and care you gave me.i have never had that experience before, except from our wonderful daughter Sherri. She is my confident. I can trust her with anything. I have made a doctors appointment for mon. june 10. to see if i am depressed. I have no energy whatsoever, I go to bed about mid-nite and get up about 12:00 or 1:00. i sit by my computer read some news, for what that is worth, read e-mails, facebook and then i read the grief pages. I do get alot from the grief pages. I do find out how many other people have to suffer also. WHY? Is there not an easy fix for this problem? I surely have not been through this kind of thing before,even when my parents passed. I get very impatient about things like this, is it that i have no control over it? I just get so frustrated with the situation i don't know how to handle it. I trust in GOD but i think my trust has been shaken a bit, not that i want it to be that way. My Sherri and I go to church and that is very comforting, if i don't start crying. I just get so embarresed if i cry in front of other people that is why i do not tell about my JUDY in group. Don't you know that grown men don't cry? I was taught that from young on. I do cry in front of Sherri but that is ok. I will start relaying info about my JUDY in upcoming posts.

My name is Dan, This is all too new to me. I lost my soulmate of 52yrs & 11 mos. on Feb 26,2013. She was 69 and I am 71. We were childhood sweethearts and I think that she was the only one that really understood me. She gave us 3 lovely children and we were and are very proud of them. They are all happily married and i have 4 grandchildren. I certainly hope this is not a female only website.I certainly would not like to interfere with that. She had 2 strokes a bleed and a clot in a period of 1 mo. June 1999. I was her caregiver from 1999 to Feb.26 2013. I would gladly do it all over again. Judy had many medical issues from thyroid, to kidney, to liver problems. She finally passed from liver failure. I will not bore you with all of her ailments, but she was my EVERYTHING. I dearly miss her and sometimes i really dont know how to go on or what to do. Our son and daughter-in-law flew me to Atlanta for three weeks in May. I live in Chandler AZ. The time spent with them was good but a big void existed in my heart. The first month was not too bad in my grief, even into the second month, but in May when i got back home, all hell broke loose. I think i finally came to realize that she WAS GONE and not coming back. I cry at the drop of a hat. I have a hospice counseler once every 2 weeks and group every 2 weeks. I have not yet said anything at group about Judy at all. I am very private man and it takes me quite a while to trust people, This passing of Judy has shook my entire world and it is very personal to me. Believe me i do need help. I would like to find out about Marty and her e-mail program.