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denisew.

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    2013
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    Rhode Island
  1. Marty..I'm sure reading your list brings the joy (TT joy) ! right back to mind and makes you smile. I will do the same and post some of the silly things Oliver did.
  2. Tibetan Terriers! Oliver would "poke" the cat with his nose just to be a big tease, and see if he'd get chased through the house!
  3. Thank you Mary.Creating a journal about Oliver's life and the memories we shared is a great idea! Writing will help keep him alive in my mind and will hopefully will help with the healing process. To be fair though, I will also start a book for my new little girl Jasmine. She's also a great companion, but different (in a good way). She will be my agility training pal! She deserves the best from me too... !
  4. Thank you..I still have days where I am very sad. I think sometimes I panic a little bit at the thought of fading memories...his joyously smiling face as he runs like the dickens through the woods...the way he looked at me when he thought I was saying the most "interesting" things... how he would "prance ' through the neighborhood because all of the ladies thought he was the cutest "teddy bear" ! I dont want to forget him or things he did.
  5. Hello everyone..I wanted to let you know that Oliver passed away August 28th of 2013. It was a Wednesday, but Oliver couldn't have had a better weekend before. My parents came to visit from Florida, and my brother and his family came from Colorado. We had a family cookout the Sunday before, with everyone making a special effort to give Oliver lots of love and attention. His passing has left a huge hole in my life, and even now, after almost 5 months, I miss him terribly. About a month after his passing, I had a dream that I was looking for him, and there he was (in my livingroom) . He put his big Tibetan Terrier paws around my neck and told me he loved me and everything was ok. From that point on, I didn't feel less sad, but was able to move forward a little bit. It was on October 23, when , on a whim, I decided to take a ride to a local shelter. There was a little silky terrier/norwich terrier mix................she was adorable, and according to the staff loved to hike! I have had her since, and she's a wonderful companion. I still think of Oliver everyday, and know he is forever in my heart and soul. Thank you all for listening.
  6. Thank you all for your understanding and kindness. Oliver is still with me, but I do expect within the next week or so to take that "final" ride to the vets. For the past week I have been taking Oliver to our favorite hiking spot- just to let him poke around if he wants to, and sit on our favorite big rock listening to the little waterfall nearby. He is losing interest every day. The end is near, and when I think of it, my knees get weak, and I have panic. We are each other's moon and stars, but I do believe he will be in me and around me forever. Thank you all again- I feel comforted knowing others are going through the same feelings, and I hope to be able to help others in time.
  7. Thank you Marty, I will be sure to read this material.
  8. It was a rainy, actually pouring rain, September 11,2007. I was on my way to pick up the love of my life- Oliver- at the airport in RI. I was so excited to have a pal that I could do things with--like hiking, and maybe kayaking! When I got home and saw him, I "Oh,no, what did I get myself into?"--Oliver stunk, he had hardly any fur, and he looked so lost and afraid. I immediately took him to the vets and was told he had mange, ringworm, a double ear infection, and much worse, wasn't socialized at all. For the next six months we got him healthy, physically and mentally. Soon we were out hiking with my neighbor and his new bishon frise Maggie. Oliver and Maggie were the best of friends and over the next 5 years hiked many miles through some of the most beautiful parts of the state--realizing now that it wasn't so bad having Phil knocking on my door at 5:30 am wanting to get an early start! We now have the best of memories-Dunkin Donuts coffee ready for us(because we were the earliest customers!) and peanut butter crackers for the doggies! Oliver is the love of my life, he never let me out of his sight, and likewise-if I could take him - I never left him home. I always told him we were like gum on each others shoes. Of course, being a TT, Oliver could be verrry clever. During the course of his training, somehow he got me to give him the treat BEFORE he did what I wanted him to do... and it didn't start out that way!!! Then on January 2, 2013 my world crumbled. Oliver was diagnosed with lymphoma..If I did nothing he would only have 4 to 6 weeks. I started him on chemotherapy, and by the second treatment he was in remission. He did well for the most part, but one of the meds made him a little sick.He was back to his old self again and between the months of February and mid June we were back to doing what we loved best- exploring new places. On his last chemo visit, the cancer came back. He had been in remission only 4 months. I then decided that I wanted Oliver at home, not being afraid every time we went down the street the vets was on, no more poking, blood work, and meds that made him feel tired. They put him on prednisone only.It's now been about 3 weeks, and Oliver is in the final stage of the disease. I see him getting more tired every day, and he may only have about a week. I'm sick. I've been crying since January, watching my love slowly dying before my eyes. I'm so heartbroken, and I think- "how will I go on without him?" And how will he go on without me? I know when the time comes I will do what is right for him, but at the same time I don't want to lose him. How can I go to "our places" and not cry? I've been grieving, but especially dread the next week. Thank you
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