Roswell

Sorry to hear that you're feeling so down. Please be reminded that this is a difficult time of the year. The holidays have a strange effect on us, and tend to play havoc on our emotions. This holiday season is my two year mile marker, and can honestly tell you that it hasn't gotten any easier. In fact...I couldn't miss her more! I can't speak for everyone, what hurts most is knowing you'll never love like that again, nor will you ever allow someone to get that close. Building a shield around your heart, a layer of protection. My former significant other once told me my heart was like an onion. That slowly but surely she'd peel away each layer of hurt. She managed the impossible, became my best friend, and it's her friendship that I miss most. That said, please don't be too harsh on yourself. And although you want nothing to do with it, SEASONS GREETINGS, MERRY CHRISTMAS. With great sincerity, William

Kayc, Don't let anyone rush you...grieve as you must. If it's any consolation we all have a difficult time dealing with our losses. I am vastly approaching my two year anniversary, and can tell you that it hasn't gotten any easier. In fact, I couldn't miss her more! I often ask for a mere 5 more minutes...just to let her know how much I loved her and how she affected my life. Sorry to hear that you're feeling so low...please don't be too harsh on yourself! Seems to be customary around here. People beating up themselves over something they have no control of. I'd like to be the one tell you that it gets better, it doesn't, it just softens or weakens...the pain remains. You're entitled to your humbug stamp, be that as it may...your son deserves a very Merry Christmas! I wish that for you, and your immediate family. Just something to think about...nothing more. With kind reference and sincerest condolences, William

Derek, You sound rather upbeat, which is good! So awfully glad to hear that things are going your way. As I look around the pantry it's a bit empty, however, I found this can with "your" name on it. It says "Seasons greetings and holiday wishes to both you and your son Carson." Take care Derek! PS. Gonna sign off before I sound all girly and whatnot.

Janie, My faith was tested also, heavily. Your anger and uncertainty is understandable. My Mum is pretty much all that is left...she's 77, and her days are numbered. Although I live nearly 2000 miles away from her, we speak on a daily basis. She's my ray of sunshine, no day is complete without hearing from her. Whatever you decide/choose...please don't give up on "him" or cast "him" aside. He has a tendency to work in mysterious ways. You've done nothing wrong, and don't blame yourself! He's not picking on you. Testing your faith...perhaps. Regardless, I'm sorry to hear of the news. As always, best wishes and warmest regards. William

I sent Charlie a kind gesture, now I must do so for my Father. Roswell. (William)

First and foremost Flossie nobody has this worked out, which is why I'd imagine we come here together in the grieving and healing process. I for one am sorry for your loss, for both you and your children. In the same matter, on such a sad day I'd like to extend a HAPPY BIRTHDAY wishes towards you! Apparently the approaching holidays are effecting most members, understandably so...it's rather quiet! I apologize for the silence, it's a difficult time for everyone here. For what it's worth, welcome...and happy holidays to you! Sincerest of regards and warmest of wishes. William

This place continues to grow through leaps and bounds...can't say that makes it pleasant. I, myself...have taken some time off. Impending holidays and such. Not something I'm looking forward to. Janie, allow me to apologize for the ignorant...they're simply unaware of our loss. It's amazing how shallow and callous people have become. Sad when you can't count on your own family for support. You have every right to be angry...and then some. (If I may) On behalf of the entire community I'd like forward our most sincerest of condolences towards you. Please stop back in the future. That being said or stated, Welcome! Regards and best wishes, William

This is an interesting topic of discussion. Sorry Laurie, I don't mean to interrupt or intervene. Two days before my significant other passed, my cell phone crashed. Under warranty it was replaced...little did I understand or realize I was losing our most intimate words/writings/thoughts. Text messages and voice mails all wiped away! No final words. My significant other spoke French, as a rule, she left me a message on my cell everyday. The translation was always waiting for me on the answering machine at home. I used to race home... My way of saying at all costs recover and store his words. I'd give anything to hear her voice one last time. Gently, William

I missed this post, or I would've replied sooner. We share the pain...otherwise we wouldn't be here. Cry...can't think of a better place! At times, I'm more comfortable here than I am at church. Charlie..from the bottom of my heart, sorry for your loss! With good intentions and great adoration. Sincerest, William

Laurie, I don't think that anyone pays too much attention to your time of membership, I've always found everyone here to welcome all with open arms. I'd like to be the one to tell you that this healing process has a time limit, and that happiness is only a stones throw away. Time; Laurie time does NOT heal, it makes the pain fade, makes the hurt distant. How would I know? I lost my Father over thirty years ago...not a day has passed that I haven't mourned his loss. You'll have to trust me, the happiness that you seek probably resides in those boys. Sometimes the answer is as close as your fingertips. Give it some time, as I always say ..."Its not a race!" Best wishes, Good luck! William

Brian, I'm unable to put myself in your shoes, the loss of a child. As you now are already aware, nothing that you do or say, no matter how strong your prayer...brings them back. Concentrate your efforts onto your son. Brian...I am so sorry for your loss! Till then, a strong handshake will have to suffice. Quite humbled, William

Chrissy, you've got to be the most difficult person to reply to. I'm usually quiet, however you manage to weaken my voice. My voice is already shallow, so it doesn't take much. I can't fathom putting myself into your position, if it's any consolation...our thought's and prayers are constantly with you. You may or may not realize...you've pulled me through many a bad day! Hope that I've reciprocated. Take care and be well, William

Of course we understand you, you're having a bad day. What you feel is perfectly natural. If you want to mourn Chris's loss that too is acceptable. There's no time limit on mourning and grieving...it's not a race. Being strong doesn't mean that your're not entitled to a "bad" day. Nearing my two year mark, a little stronger everyday. May you find peace and comfort here. Warmest of regards and best wishes! William

LindaK, This is so fresh and new to you. Words are short, and I am sorry to find you here under such circumstances. At one time or another, everyone here has screamed. Your world is not slipping away, it's changing. Unfortunately, we have no control. God works in mysterious ways, may you find him! We're all in this together. We may not be able to heal you, we will comfort and provide for you. We will stand by your side. Hope that you find peace and tranquility here. Reverence and warmest of wishes, William

Fantastic news, and finally a breath of fresh air...so happy to hear! Cherish and be well, elated for you. William

No one here will ever judge you...and you're welcome to divulge your deepest thoughts. No doubt Larry'sGirl will be most appreciative, and receptive of your kind words. My way of saying welcome, and sorry to meet you under such terms and conditions. You'll find everyone here to be amongst the finest! Hope you find your journey here as fulfilling as I have. Best gestures and kind sentiments, William

First and foremost welcome, as much as I hate to see new faces. The pain will eventually subside, you've got to give it some time. God and I are having our little spat as well. No doubt he'll win. Anyway I'm the quiet one, they once let me reside in the corner, then I was adorned to the closet. I entrust my heart to these people, they're kind, and have always treated me well. I hope that you find the same experience. If it's any consolation...I wore sunglasses the first year. It may seem or appear that people get over this more quickly than others, which isn't the case. Some hide it better...they hurt as well. Hope that you accept my recognition of your loss. Gently, truly, William.

Well I wont say nothing more than Happy Birthday! Happy Birthday! That, and the day is yours. Blessings and regards, William

Barbara, There are times when I am most quiet, and short on words. This is one of them. Forgive me, and please accept my sincerest condolences. So sorry for your loss! Thoughts and prayers are with you. Kindly, William

Hard to follow Derek, Welcome to the site, though it really pains me to find yet another new member. We are all fully aware of what you're going through. We can't repair the pain, but if you allow us...we can alleviate some. First and foremost don't run, and remove yourself from your support group. They're only attempting to help, and unsure how. I did what you're doing, cut off all ties, shut off the telephone, moved 2000 mile away to hide. It follows you! If you can afford to, take the time out and visit your friends and family. Once you make certain choices, there's no looking back! Just something to think about! Yes...I've been there. I too am sorry for your loss, I hope you find the peace and comfort that you're seeking here. Many, many fine people reside here. Warm regards, and best wishes, William

I think that Derek meant to say "Knock them dead!" I get the impression you'll be fine! Good luck, and kick butt. Derek, you'll always be my bro'. Promise!

I think that everyone's taking things at their own pace. Slow...difficult progression. Good days, bad days, days that seem to blend together. For me, it actually pains me to see the growth of new memberships. I wouldn't wish this pain and suffering upon anyone that I ever cared about. Unfortunately it's a cruel fact of life, and something we all must share at one time or another. Sometimes silence is the best remedy. My best to all of you. Thoughts and prayers are constantly with you. William

We all have a story to tell, and thank you for sharing. First and foremost welcome, and I think "STOO" summed it up pretty well. Unfortunately there's no prescription for what we're suffering from. It's a difficult journey...an unpaved road. It's perfectly natural to feel lost. However, you will find your way! Thoughts and prayers are with both you and your family. Write as often as you wish. Anyway, I'm the quiet one...so I must return to my corner. Warmest regards, best wishes. William

It's so unfortunate that we gather here under these circumstances. Attempting, or trying to restore our life's. Anyway, I'm the quiet one. I choose to read instead of write. Sometimes silence is the best remedy. Perhaps it just works well for me? Regardless, I too am sorry for your loss. And there's no possible words I could possibly compose that would alleviate your hurt and sorrow. However, you have stumbled across the finest group of people that God ever assembled. Best wishes and kind regards, William

Derek, Here I thought you managed to get your butt into trouble. Thought's and prayers are always with you Bro!. Your words are never in vein, and they don't always fall upon a pair of deft ears. You'd be surprised! All my best...and then some! William