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My heart goes out to you and your family, Mary. I too have to plan a double memorial and wonder where the strength will come from or how I will get through. You have a ton of support, but please know that I'm here and I understand and feel your pain. Take care and as my mom use to say, "keep you chin up"

Thanks for the additional info. I think I'll just use the online support for now. My mom's memorial is planned for Dec 1 (we postponed to wait for her snowbird friends to return) and we will likely add Earl's memorial rather than doing a separate one. Maybe the time and having the memorial behind us will do wonders and come December I'll be so much better Lately I haven't been crying as much, but I sure don't feel like myself. So strange feeling like I'm walking around in a dream and every now and then reality hits me like a ton of bricks. It's a good thing I'm unemployed right now because I don't feel like I could function.

Thanks to you all... I'm overwhelmed by the support already. Thanks for the advice on grief support groups, I will postpone attending a group meeting for the time being. You're exactly right, KayC, I am feeling a loss of purpose on top of everything else.

Thank you Anne. I was thrilled to see that someone replied so quickly! I am not familiar with grief support but will take your advice and try individual counseling first. I don't need anymore overwhelming things in my life right now. Thank you again.

My oldest brother, Earl, passed on 8/27/13 after living with cancer for 2 1/2 years. Although we knew it was terminal he was always so strong, courageous, and in good spirits we would sometimes forget reality. So, I know it hasn't been very long, but I thought I would be feeling some relief by now. I cry numerous times everyday and it feels like it's never going to end. I am going to a grief support meeting on Monday, but wanted to reach out here for some support. In addition to the loss of my brother, we also lost my mom to cancer just two months ago. I dealt with her death pretty well (I think). After she passed my whole life revolved around Earl so I'm thinking I never really grieved for my mom because I was taking care of my brother and now I'm grieving for both. I also live in my mom's home were both her and my brother passed. It was comforting to be here when I was caring for my brother, but now there are just too many memories that bring tears.