Hi everyone, I really need some advice about my recent break up. We were together for 11 years and have always managed to sort out our problems as they were never anything major. Earlier this year I lost my Father, I was unable to cope with the loss and she was there for me.
2 months after we ran into some issues, I pushed her away because I couldn't handle the way i was feeling, i was depressed all the time, i had trouble sleeping,eating, concentrating etc. Its being 6 months since she left me and although we have being in contact and i have explained to her that it was wrong of me to do what i did, she still doesn't seem to understand what I am going through. I wanted to get back but she doesn't want to as she makes excuses like we need to figure out our careers first before we think about a relationship and i am a big distraction in her life. I honestly cant understand how she can say she loves me and misses me but only wants to be friends for now, i couldn't accept what she wanted and i know there is no1 else in her life but maybe she is no longer in love with me. We get along very well when we together but I want to move forward with her and it seems as if she is having doubts about us.
I have now started taking medication for depression as things doesn't seem to get better and i feel much worse now, i have being to a therapist which didn't seem to help. We haven't spoken for a while and her life seems to carry on as if i never existed whilst I am having thoughts of suicide. Its seems as if she is hiding how she really feels. Is it normal for her to feel this way? After 11 years of being together, Is it right that she wants us to work on our careers before we get back?
