Cheryl was 5 years older than I am when she passed away on November28, 2013, shortly after her 64th birthday. She died of stage 4 uterine cancer, which was diagnosed in June 2012 through a routine Pap smear. She was my best friend, confidante, and role model. Although we lived 2 1/2 hours away from each other, we talked every day -- often multiple times. I have another sister who is 10 years older and 2 brothers who are 6 and 12 years older. None of them had the same close relationship with my sister that I had, although they all loved her dearly, as does our mother. Cheryl and I often joked that we were each other's other self. I could go on forever explaining how close we were but I thin you get the point. She was married to her high school sweetheart for nearly 44 years. During 2013 I spent a large amount of time helping him care for her and taking her back and forth to doctor appointments, chemo, radiation, etc. I have comfort in knowing that I was there for her and she knew how much I loved her.
However, I can't seem to go on without her. There is a huge hole in my heart and I miss her so much it's like a physical pain. Her husband is the same way and we can't talk to each other without crying. My husband doesn't know how to help me and I don't know how to help myself. I cannot fathom life going on without her.