My brother and only sibling died on 2/15/14. We thought he was murdered, because he was robbed and he was found on his bed with his head resting in blood. About 12x12 in diameter. There was also a bloody pillowcase found in the washing machine. This has been a living nightmare from day 1. We used to be such normal people. This doesn't happen to normal people- this happens in Tv.
So my parents were completely out of it/recently divorced/ and everything fell to me.
I live in texas with my three kids, while husband is serving in Afghanistan.
I was the one who spoke to the medical examiner, detectives, crime scene people, I made the funeral arrangements, picked everything out, signed for the bill, got my children and myself on 3 flights to GA. Called Red Cross- got my hubby home, picked out the casket, flowers, music, printed out the pictures, saw his blackened face and head. Fought with my mothers boyfriend, ignored the fact that my father couldn't go inside, Buried him in my husbands family plot so we can be together forever. Follow calls, thankyous, everything fell to me and I did it. I think I did a good job. All this and I get the call today that my brother was not murdered but OD'd on GHB, cocaine, alcohol. People were probably there and they ran in fear but he couldn't have survived this dose of GHB. My brother drank on weekends. That's all I knew. He lived with me for an entire year prior to his death four months after he moved out. He did not do drugs here. He was no addict?!?! I'm so hurt, confused, angry, sad, and I've literally been crying all day. It's been 3 months and the last few weeks I could feel myself growing stronger! Then this.
I'm in grief counseling, and loss of a loved one bible study. I have strong faith in The Lord, but this report has completely knocked me down. I'm here asking for prayers. Also, od deaths... Will I ever be okay again? Please help me.