m trying to be strong for his friends and talk more to them because I am getting no support from my friends. We don't live in the same town, so none of my friends knew him. I have one friend who checks on me, but that's about it. So I'm trying to be that person for -his- friends, even knowing that they all have the support system I need.
A good friend of mine lost her younger sister, who had a similar story 2 months before I went through it. She's told me that the best advoce she got was to "redefine what makes a good day". I've done that. Good days now are days when I don't cry that much.
Like I said in my original post, I've lost good friends (suicide, car accident & murder) and nothing hurts like this. I just don't really want to deal with it yet. If that makes sense.