I always counted myself lucky because up until now (I am 25), I hadn't lost anyone close to me. Both my parents were mainly in good health. So I didn't have any worries about them. Well back in March, I got a call from my brother that my dad was rushed to the hospital. I later found out that he had an aortic aneurysm. He went through surgery that day, but his chances were slim that he would even make it much past the surgery. He didn't, he died that evening. My parents had been divorced for 20 years, but my mom made sure to be there for me and my brother. My mom was my favorite person in the world, and I remember she could not leave me anytime soon. On Father's Day this year I decided to stay home this year and do nothing for it. My mom was heading to my grandparents/her parents that were about an hour away. I got a call later that day from the state police telling me they needed to speak with me. They wouldn't tell me over the phone what was going on, and I had to go meet up with them. A 16 year old had lost control of his truck, and hit my mom's small car head on. She died on impact. I have been going on with my life, but there are times that it hurts so much that they are gone. I keep hoping I will wake up from this awful nightmare. But I know it's real. People keep telling me they are so proud of how strong I have been, I think I am afraid if I broke down I wouldn't be able to come back from it. I have had anxiety problems all my life, and my mom always help me through those. I have had some very bad times with it. So I am afraid if I don't stay strong, my anxiety will get really bad. I won't have her to help me get through it. So I don't know if I am really as strong about all this as people say I am.
