Tonyswife

In the early days I did nothing but cry and I didn't try to hold it back. People understood. Unfortunately, a year later I do tend to hold it back until I'm alone as I think people will think I should have moved on. But it's very early days for you and it's healthy to let the tears flow. No-one will condemn you for it.

Thank you all for your kind words etc. It's very comforting to know my feelings are 'normal'. Thank you for the link MartyT - that's the very page I found that brought me to this group. Praised74 you must have lost your husband about the same time, Tony died 22 June last year. I do hope your cyst turns out to be harmless. I will keep you in my prayers. And Wifflesnook - nice to see someone on the same side of the pond as me!! How heartbreaking and poignant to have a death and a birth so close. How difficult that must have been for everyone. Since Tony died my daughter has had a baby boy (he's 11 weeks old now) and he has the middle name Anthony after my Tony. A lovely legacy. I am sure your granddaughter will bring you great joy over the years ahead.

Hello all, I am new on here. I discovered this site when I was searching about 'grieving one year on'. I didn't expect a sudden overnight change after a year, all those 'firsts', all that 'this time last year.....'. But I also didn't expect to feel worse! It's like starting to grieve all over again and it's confusing me. I am told this is quite common when 'the dust settles' and all the practicalities have been dealt with. Now it's time to just try to live without him with little else to distract me from that. His death was unexpected and traumatic as we were abroad on holiday and that has brought many difficulties - particularly for family who weren't there and had to deal with him just going on holiday and never coming home! It would help me to hear how others have felt 'one year on'. I am in the UK and it's 1am so I may not respond straight away to any replies. Thanking you in anticipation