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LaDonna

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  • Date of Death
    not yet, could be any day
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    New Jersey

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    Female
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    Mount Juliet, Tennessee
  1. Kay, Thank you for your response. It helps in some way to know I'm not alone. Many of friends don't understand this. I must say I don't fully understand but do to some point. I tend to shut out the world when I'm upset. In fact, I'm doing it now but trying not to. Thank you for the honesty. I know that there is no set formula just was hoping that someone (some couple) made it through this and their still together on the other side of the grieving. This so painful. I feel like my hands are tied. Unfortunately, all of my family are in Pennsylvania. I have very few friends. When I go out it is normally alone. Working out and spending time detailing my cars has become a BIG release. In fact, I just finished running. Some days I feel like giving up. I can't take any more of this roller coaster ride others I would wait a lifetime for him. He has mentioned getting together a few times but backs out at the last moment. I keep hoping he will ask again to give me a little glimpse of hope even if he backs out. His dad took a turn for the worse toward the begging of July. He wasn't good towards the end of June. I remember we had lunch together. His dad was just about the only thing he spoke of. I could see the pain in his face. As soon as I asked how he felt about it he changed the subject. The other day I was texting him. I didn't mention death and then he brought up something about being afraid to die. This made me think there are a few things bothering/weighing on his mind. He went out with his friends the other weekend. I have yet to get him to do something with me. How in the world should I take that? One of my friends suggested that guys hanging how doesn't require any emotions in play. This is so difficult. I love him and want to be with him but I can't. When his dad first got really bad. He was unusually quiet. Then, he told me about his dad. He said he would like some time to himself. I said, "Okay, I will respect your wishes. I hope it isn't something I did." His reply was no you didn't do anything. At least I haven't cried today. Not yet, anyhow. I have been praying for him. God be with us all going through difficult times. Help us.
  2. Guys, I don't have much time to write currently. I'm sitting here in tears. Just as everyone else on this post my relationship was ended due to my boyfriend's dad very serious illness that has left him bed ridden. He hasn't passed but could any moment. The pain and emptiness is unreal. He still talks to me through texts on but we all know that isn't a relationship. I need comfort. Depression is a daily battle. I'm trying to be patient and understanding. Yet keep in touch with him in hopes that when he comes around, "we" will have a chance again. All my friends tell me to move on. This is crazy. Has it worked out for anyone after the individual has dealt with their grieve or am I just waiting on something that is hopeless?
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