My partner, John died in February of this year after only five months with bladder cancer. They diagnosed him in August after he found blood in his urine. They scheduled a surgery to remove the bladder. All reports came back positive that the cancer had not spread. He was put on chemo as a precaution. After about 2 months he was showing significant weight loss. We went back to the doctor and they adjusted the chemo meds. He continued to lose weight and all told in 3 months lost 40-50 pounds. When we went back the final time he had developed a large mass on his abdomen where the incision to remove the bladder was. His prognosis went from hopeful to very little chance of survival. On January 18th I put him into hospice where he died two weeks later.
I have suffered from depression for quite some time but it has been under control for many years.. Of course the grief of losing John came. I took an LOA from work to deal with my ongoing depression and anxiety. Over the course of this time, I developed a very strong friendship with a woman from work. She has kept in close contact nearly daily. Lately, she isn't calling every day, and has started to go out on dates. To make a long story short, I've developed severe anxiety that she is going to leave me. I have become so obsessed with this thought that I can't sleep or eat. I have to say that I am seeing a psychologist and doctor, but I just wonder if anyone else has become very attached to someone since the death? The loneliness is exhausting. I left my job because I can no longer function. Thankfully I am able to take some time off to get this all straightened out.