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seaheather

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  • Date of Death
    August 24, 2014
  • Name/Location of Hospice if they were involved:
    Our Hospice of South Central Indiana

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    Female
  • Location (city, state)
    Downeast Maine
  1. My much-loved mother passed away on August 24 at the age of 93. She had been failing for several months leading up to her death, and was receiving in-home care from Hospice. Her family.... children, grandchldren and greatgrandchildren.... were with her at the time she left this world. While it was a privilege to be with her and to be holding her hand, I haven't been able to get over it. She knew we loved her, and she expressed her love for us as well There were no unsaid things that should be weighing on my heart, and yet I can't seem to let go of guilt. My husband and I had planned a vacation in September. I seriously considered cancelling, even though I know my mother would have been upset if we had done that. We went, and I am ashamed to say I enjoyed the time away and meeting new people. When we got home, we went back to help my brother go through my mother's personal effects. I believe it was beneficial having a few weeks between the time of my mother's death and having to face the task of going through her desk and her dresser. It was still heartbreaking, but we got through it. My problem now is that I can't seem to get back to my normal routine. The things I used to enjoy.... reading, sewing, knitting..... hold little appeal. I've been avoiding all of it. I've become addicted to playing an online Scrabble game, which lets me think of nothing else but how to use my letter tiles. When I think of my mother I can't help but cry and feel guilty for things I can't even define. Is this normal? I so want to be back to my cheerful self. Karen
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