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That was a beautiful post. Thank you

Today was the first good day I have had in a while. I got some gifts wrapped, some laundry done and got to watch a good football game. It was like he was right here with me. Don loved the outdoors. He loved to hunt and ride his motorcycle. He went to the emergency room in January because of a stomach aneurism. They did tests and said it didn't look good. He was in and out of the hospital until he passed. He had a great sense of humor to. That was one of things I loved most about him. God I miss him, but I had a good day. Thank you everyone.

Thank you, I am sorry for all of all of our losses here. I can only try and put one foot in front of the other. At least I can talk to caring people here that understand and I am certainly glad that I had the nerve to sign up and write about what I think.

Thank you for the kind words. Now that I am not working 10 hour days, I may try to go to grief counseling. I know I need it. Every time I log in and read all the posts, I start crying again. I will share as soon as I am able to. Thank you for letting me be me here. I don't need people telling me to suck it up and move on. I would have quit my job months ago just to take him from the hospital and go do something fun for a little while, but that did not happen.

ok, I finally found the courage to create an account. My husband died of liver cancer on 9/3/2014, four days before our 24th anniversary. I find I don't have energy to do anything right now. My 87 year old mother is my baby sitter right now. God bless her and my sisters. I quit my job last week because I didn't want to get out of bed. I told his family I would be up xmas eve, but I don't know. I am gonna try and eat something and get out for a while. Thank you for letting me share. This is so painful.