Thank you everyone for the support, I really appreciate it. Today is our one year anniversary and as expected I am filled with sadness. Jesse had so many friends, everyone loved him and those are usually the people I like to surround myself with, but not today. I feel beyond lonely, just alone. No one can ever take his place, no one can save me from this pain. It's still fresh enough where I think he will just show up, I can still smell him, feel him. I question everyday if this is real, is this really my life and it is. I don't know, I just wish he was here, we would have been so happy to have made it to one year. But on a positive note I am happy to have known him at all, to have known real love. I'm grateful for that.