missingmylove,
thank you for replying to me. My husband was my life and backbone, I felt I could do anything when he was around, now I feel like I am lost. It is not fair! I keep thinking some how I can bring him back, but know in reality it is not going to happen. Can I ask you how old your husband was? My husband was 59, would have been sixty tomorrow 1/28. I had all these plans to enjoy myself with him when I retired (he was retired/disabled). And do all the things we dreamed of doing. It is just soo hard, especially getting rid of his stuff. He was so proud of what he owned, as he worked hard to get what we had. He loved flying r.c. planes, and it is so hard to get rid of them, I feel like I am betraying him. Why does this have to be so difficult.