I Lost my 33 yr old wife Jan. 24, 2015. We had been together for almost 15 yrs and our 13 yr Anniversary is Feb. 23. We have 4 children ages 12, 4 and 3 yr old twins. I honestly can't think of a word or words to describe the level of pain, devastation and heartache I feel. I keep hearing/reading that this will get easier but I cant see how it will. I miss her so much my body physically hurts inside and out. I feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest. She was everything to me and our children worshipped her. She was the best mom i have ever known. I am scared to death when I think about living the rest of my life without her.