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  • Birthday 05/24/1955

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    February 16th, 2015
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    Chesapeake, VA
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    God, natural health, serving others, passion for flying, Playing saxophone, Tiffany stained glass, gardening,shelties & collies, reading, smooth jazz, ...

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  1. Five years ago today, my beloved wife, Rose Anne departed. It seems to have hit me more this year. I had trouble sleeping last night. I woke up late and decided to not attend church. Some memories and flashbacks to the time I discovered her lifeless body has haunted me the last few days. This too shall pass. - Shalom (Peace)
  2. Yes, you will! - Shalom
  3. Fae, Thank you for sharing everything you have with us. On the 16th of this month, I will be experiencing the fifth anniversary of my beloved wife, Rose Anne. I didn't think I could survive for a day or a week yet here I am. I share the same sentiments that you have expressed... and still we continue on the path laid before us. I appreciate you and many others that helped, listened, and encouraged me. Thank you - Shalom (Peace)
  4. Two months after my hospitalization, I return to the gym to resume my fitness routine. My anxiety level and trepidation was high. Before I began, my heart rate jumped up to 134 BPM. That was before I started to exercise. I calmed myself down and just starte my upper body routine. I spent about 35 minutes today just getting used to using the muscles, machines, and memory. It felt good to be back where I have been going to for a year now. tomorrow I plan to return for my lower body workout routine. Keep pressing forward. - Shalom
  5. You have a lot to deal with it. I would think that you would prefer to be at home than in an assistance facility. I would ask your financial advisor to help with the process of determining the best in-home care services to work with your budget. If the first one you chose doesn't work out then move on to the next one. It seems you would have more control and there is always hope that your health will improve. Plus you will be home with your beloved pets.... praying for your healing and recovery. - Shalom (Peace)
  6. Thank you, Kayc, I have decided to start walking each day and plan to return to the gym on Monday to resume my basic core exercises. I will plan to start slow and rebuild. I'm still working on sorting out all of these Medicare choices and options. Time flies and I need to sign up soon!. May will be here soon!. - Shalom
  7. The physician assistant told me the same thing!. My LDL-c is 153. My triglyceride 46 and HDL is 69. The best number a person can have. Lowering cholestoral lowers all of our hormone, vitamin, and mineral production. The scientific studies all say that we need higher cholesterol levels as we mature. The mortality rate is higher for people on statins with lower cholesterol. Once I know it, I can't pretend I don't ! Please ask your doctor for real clinical trials that prove the doctors protocol. there are none. They are associative studies. " Association dose not prove Causation. They suggest further clinical trials. I have decided to follow "PEACE" instead of "Fear". It is a daily choice.
  8. I realized it's been another month since I've written. It has been a tough time since my hospitalization. It has been hard for me to accept the fact that I had a heart attack... It is even hard to write or even say it. I am fortunate and blessed that there is NO damage to my heart. The controversy is the doctors view on how to treat it is counter to actual scientific trials and facts. The cardiologist could care less about my thyroid and how it caused this heart episode. She is only interested in the heart. " They only follow AMA guidelines and recommend statins and reducing LDL's down to 70. However every study says that it causes congestive heart failure. Our body need more LDL and protein as we age. Well, I'm aging because I'll be 65 in May. The medical community uses so much fear tactics to coerce us to follow their prescribed treatment. I blindly trusted the doctors with my wife's medical care and it put her to an early grave following old assumptions that were never actual proven. I am fortunate to have changed my food and lifestyle as I was headed down a disastrous road. My overwhelming passion to learn to fly an airplane drove me to lose weight. When I stalled, I was determined to continue and discovered that I was head down the same path towards Type 2 Diabetes. I was shock and stunned. No doctor every advised me. I discovered it on my own. The doctors can do a few simple tests and let people know 10-15 years before they get diabetes. However, there is no drug treatment or profit motive in it. Sad but true. It is the same way with cardiovascular disease. There is a simple test CAC ( coronary artery calcium that can tell us what the ACTUAL calcification in our heart and arteries, however that is not were the money is made. So this seems to be an uphill battle on many fronts.... Also I turn 65 in May and have all of these decisions to make about Medicare options. My Insurance costs last year $5 month. The first four months $95 plus meds then on May 1st jumps to $350 per month. It is another stressor along with this huge doctor bill I just got from the hospitalization ( huge deductible). I prefer to report growth and healing but that's not where I'm at right now. The medications and planted fears have side effects as well. I am able to work but still have not gone back to the gym since my hospitalization. I realize some fear has crept in where I would rather be faithful. For those willing please intercede for me Peace, Protection, Wisdom, and Guidance through this valley. - Shalom
  9. I agree. Next month, it will be five years since Rose Anne died. You would think I would get used to it but I just miss her more. It still floors me and the crying hits me even now. I agree with you Marg M. We are still here for some reason. - Shalom
  10. Mark M, Reading your story, I can so relate in many ways. I met my beloved wife, Rose Anne, and our story has some very similar themes. I was in SHOCK and AWE for a long time after her sudden and unexpected death. I too, went back to work in a couple of days and walked through the valley you speak so well of. My journey is recorded in this group. For this is were I discovered how to make sense and learn tools to deal with the grief, loss, and eventual acceptance and living with both grief, and healing. My Mother died, my brother, my MIL, but nothing prepared me for this journey. This place is a sanctuary and a safe respite where people here truly understand and get what it means to be the one left standing in this world when our beloved passes. Next month, it will be five years. Your story reminds so much of where I was then and I too couldn't see or understand how to continue. Welcome to the group that none of us really want to belong to and yet we are learning to deal with and manage each day as it comes. Please return and share whatever you need or want to . We are all here to help each other. Many people helped me through the roughest early time and many of us stay to help others as well as supporting each other. - Shalom ( God's Peace be with you)
  11. Merry Christmas Everyone! Much is going on! It's difficult to write down and sort out what is going on. My health is as good as it can be. My mind still struggles with the concept of now being a cardiac patient. I have been focused on getting my home getting sorted, discarding unnecessary items and paring everything down to a manageable order. It is difficult dealing with the emotions of letting go of stuff that "WE" had but that I no longer really need. I'm thankful for the improved energy but uncertain about the future. The doctors, cardiologists, nutritionist are all still pushing statins, blood pressure meds and a total change of food and lifestyle that goes counter to everything that i have learned and adopted the last three years. I have lost 155lbs and maintained it for over a year and half. There are so many unanswered questions and the doctors use fear and intimidation to persuade patients to conform to their "Stand of care " practices. They don't listen or care what the TRUTH is about Cholesterol, Saturated fats and only know to push their pharmaceutical drugs as the only treatment option available. It is difficult to push against the majority stream of consciousness yet I understand the TRUTH and can not pretend that I don't know. I was informed today that Thursday I can pick up the mandatory drug with no co-pay for December. January is a new year and a new set of deductibles and co-pay. My prayer is I can get my house in order before I am called home. This anti-clotting medicine has some serious "blackbox" side-effects that i can not even begin to wrap my head around. Every day, every moment is a time of Grace for me. Live it to the fullest! None of us is promised any more time on this earth. I pray, I can serve out my time with peace, honor, and respect for this additional time I have been granted. - Shalom ( God's Perfect Peace be with you)
  12. Have a Blessed Thanksgiving! Yesterday was a very emotional day. The reality of what happened hit my soul and softened my heart towards my sister. My sister wanted and I had no intention of going to her husbands relatives today for Dinner. I wrote out a letter and read it to her and ask that she just listen, and not respond until I finished reading. I told her I really didn't want to go as it is stressful to me. She is connect to them by marriage. Their customs, speech, interests, etc.. is just not the same. I told her I didn't want to ruin her Thanksgiving. She accepted my request and I will get to relax at home today. The medicines they put me on have side effects that really affect me. The blood pressure medicine lowers my heart rate too low, and makes me dizzy, foggy brain, affects my speech and thinking. It also contributes to congestive heart failure! The Statin drugs increases diabetes and obesity. The blood thinners can cause brain bleeds and organ bleeds as there is no blood clotting factor. When the plaque buildup was removed then the stents needed to be placed so the arteries don't collapse. However without, the anti-blood clotting medicine, they will immediately block because the stents are a foreign object to the body. I am studying and searching for the best option to maximize my health now with the diagnosis added to my health risk. I am thankful for every moment i am alive for I don't know how long that will be. I have read that there is Widowmaker Heart Attack Grief as well. Life sure throws us some interesting turns. No that I have a heart attack my dream of being able to fly has been completely grounded. Ill have to accept this as I have other losses in my life. I have noticed other improvements in my health. I have more energy, my hands and feet are not cold all the time and the sores on my feet are not painful! I continue to pray for wisdom to navigate through this maze of man-made drugs and their side effects, quality of life, and healthy natural alternatives. Have a blessed day! - Shalom
  13. UPDATE: I had a widow maker heart attack Sunday morning! Most people do not survive. I had two blockages (99% and 90% ) in the same LAD artery. I was fortunately spared. No damage to the heart! It was caught and repaired quickly before any damage occurred. I went to the emergency care when I had chest pains, shortness of breath, and pain radiating in both arms. I took aspirin and got treated promptly. The doctors were surprised that it was so occluded without severe pain or damage. My God is merciful to me. Almost three years of working on improving my health helped to mitigate damage. The low thyroid function contributed to the excess plaque buildup though. I was discharged this morning and able to walk back to my home. Al of my scheduled work is cancelled this week to rest and recover. I am Grateful and Thankful to be alive and able to celebrate another Thanksgiving. My Insulin sensitivity has almost normalized by switching to a healthier way of eating, living and exercise. My doctor said , " I have an extended ten year warranty!" and that if he has a heart attack he would want it to be like mine! I am tired an will rest and relax as I adjust and learn to deal with the label of "Cardiac" patient. I have meds to take and more to learn about how to continue to optimize my health. I hope everyone has a blessed Thanksgiving. Shalom (Peace)
  14. Katie1, I wanted the same thing. In fact we all still do! I was in Shock and AWE for a long time. I found this place of sanctuary, comfort, and people who truly understand what this side of grief and loss is that most of the world just doesn't comprehend. Please come and share as you can. I found it very helpful in my grief to share what I just couldn't make sense of what happened to my beloved wife. I still want her back... Peace
  15. I love your stories. They are precious memories! - Shalom (Peace)
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