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I am so sorry for your loss ( as I know that does not always help) and I do know exactly what you mean my being over whelmed. It is true taht you need to just let yourself grieve (as hard as that is at times) I agree with everyone as far as this is a ness. part of "letting go" as much as we do not want to do that. I know that I find myself crying in the car alot. For whatever reason I do not know...maybe becaise that is MY time alone and I dont want to upset anyone else , maybe because that is when I have the most time to think...I am not sure. the point is everyone grieves in different ways. You may cry you may scream you may need to take up kick boxing who knows...you just need to find teh best way that it is for you to greve and go with it. Juts know that we are all here for you whenever you need a shoulder. Feel free to IM me if need be too.

I do not know the reasons that we have dreams like these but from my experience we all seem to have them at some point or another. I had one of my grandmother just 2 weeks ago (she passed March 25 th of this year) I want to believe it is their way of letting us know that they are ok and that they are still with us even if only in our dreams. I know that for me my grandma was my "rock" she was what I modeled myself to be when I grew older. She taught me all the important things in life including how to be a survivor. Cherish the dreams that you have and just know that we are all here for you when you need us.

So as soon as I got home from work I went right to bed and could not bring myself to get out. This feeling of loss is over whelming at times and I just dont know what to do. I have been able to "manage" it up until this point but last night I was just over come by it. I do have 3 beautiful daughters that have beeen keeping me going and a husband that is so supportive that words cannot express. He does not understand it but he supports me because he knows how much she meant to me and how much I miss her. Does anyone have any suggestions that could help with this..please tell me if you do.

I absolutly do that. It has been 5 months since I lost my grandmother and I still think I need to call her for a recipe or to tell her somethng about the kids. Then to getthe feeling that you just got kicked in the gut because you realize that they are not there to call anymore. We are all here for you and just know that we are all thinking of you.

Thank you so much for that attatchement. That pretty much sums up everything that I have been feeling but have not had the words to say it. My granmother was the most important peron in my life )obviously a different love than I feel for my husband or children) and her death hs totally taken me back and knocked me off of my feet. There are days I feel that I can barely catch my breath let alone acomplish anything else but somehow I muster up the strength to carry on and "do what I have to do" (as she would always say) This website is qiute honestly the best thing that I have found to help me through the rough days. Thank you to all who take the time to reply.

My husband and I have been together for almost 15 years and I recently lost my grandma. (in March) As some of you have read my post...I am just now experiencing a lot of grief...the numbing , crying spells , just plain depresed. He does not understand why I am going throught this now when we lost her in March. My husband was very close to her as well and he took it hard as well but it is hitting me harder now than the initial loss. For example tonight we were at a freinds house and I was looking through a catalog and saw a beautiful christmas ornament that you hang on your treee in memory of thise loved ones that are no longer with us and I just started to cry. I just wanted to go home so I could cry alaone in my own house, so when I was aksed why I wanted to go home I just said I was tired...how can I make him understand? He is VERY supportive and lets me have my time and space but help me help him understand...anyone?

NO you have not lost it. You are doing what you need to do for ourself to help grieve the loss of our mother. agree that it is difficult to believe that they are gone when you can feel their physical presence around you. She will come back and visit as I m sure that she does now...just without you knowing that she is there. I believe that spirits are all around us and she will help you get through this grief and she will help you through this. I am also in the 4-9 month stage..I lost my grandmother (my rock) on March 25th so it has been just over 5 months now. You will get through this with the love and support of those around you. Just know that we are all thinking and praying for you.

As corny as it sounds...I do know exactly what you are going through. I am soooo sorry for the loss of your grandmother. I was told by my daughters counselor that not ever one grieves the same or at the same time. It may hit you imidiately or it may be weeks or even months until you feel the full effects of your loss. You just have to do what is the best for you. If the best thing to do is cry, then cry, if the best thing is couseling then you do that. Life does not make sense sometimes but you are a strong individual and you will get through this with the love and support of those around you. We will all keep you in our thoughts and prayers. Bless you and your family sweetie.

Hi Lori - I totally understand why you want to go and see a medium. You feel that you have questions that need to be answered and I think that is great that you are able to do that. I know that a lot of people dont believe in them but you have to do what is right for YOU and no one else. YOU are the one that is having these feeling and everyone deals with things in different ways. I hope that you find the answers that you are looking for and we will all keep you in our thoughts and prayers.

I am new to this site and hope that I am doing this right...I recently loss my grandma.My grandma was a very important person in my life due to while growing up my mom had a commitment problem...that is to everything except drugs. So I was at grandma's house most of the time. So I looked at her more as a mother than a grandma. I always refered to her as my rock. She was my foundation in life. She taught me all the important things in life. One of the things... other than the obvious that bothers me...is that I did not fall apart at the funeral. Why when this most important person passed did I not fall apart? I did cry and I was hurt and numb but I did not react as I had always thought that I would. But now that we are just passing the 5 month marker I am having the most difficulty. I am having dreams that just paralize me. The first dream was not bad per say...it was that I went to her house and she was sitting in the chair. My nephew was crying and in the dream and I was told that he was crying because he thought she had died but she didnt...then I work up. Then about a week later I was trying to fall asleep when all of these pictures of grandma in the hospital were racing through my head (and I could smell the smells from the hosp like I was there again) and I could visualize everything like as if it was happening again right in front of me. The harder that I tried to make the thoughts go away the harder and the faster they came on. Then suddenly I remembered this thing my grandma would always say to me since we moved 6 hrs away...she would say "wrap your arms around yourself and squeeze and that is me hugging you." I FELT HER HUG ME...maybe I am crazy but I swear I did...and then I fell asleep. Am I loosing it? I miss her so much. I cry at the drop of a hat now, I just dont understand why it is affecting me so much now and not before...