Shiloh's Mom, You came to the right place for support. I've been reading this bb for awhile and just today registered. The compassion here is sincere and everyone understands the grief at losing a dear friend. For your worries that you won't know when it is time to let Shiloh go. If you listen with your heart you will know. Look into her eyes and watch for what I have always called the 1000 mile stare. You will recognize it. It is when your dear friend is looking at you, but at the same time gazing off to the future place where others are waiting. It is a very soft look in their eyes, as if they know they will be soon in a place where there is no longer any pain or discomfort and only peace. Talk to Shiloh, as you have. Let her know it's ok to let you know when she through fighting this terrible disease. Listen closely and you will hear. Open your heart to her every thought. Don't dwell on the time she will be leaving, but live in the here and now. Love on her and absorb every little bit of her you can for now. When the time comes, give her the gift of your heart and send her on. It truely is a gift we give to our friends. I've come to realize the definition of euthanasia is "taking their pain and makaing it our own." It is one of the hardest decisions we, as pet owners, ever have to make. But it is one of the most important and kindest decisions we have to make. My heart is with you, and I will keep you in my prayers and thoughts. sue