My husband died 5/4/15 unexpectedly. We had been together 8 years and married four of those years. We had a genuine love story until he retired and then he got depressed. The last year was very difficult, he was no longer the man I married and nothing helped. He passed away from an unrelated incident and it was sudden. He was in the hospital a month but due to brain damage we never got a chance to talk. He left with no will, four grown children from another marrage, 3 years of unfiled taxes (we filed separately) and four properties that are a financial mess and they are in another state. I have 3 grown children and one of my sons lives with me but he is never here. My husbands children only try to contact me to find out what is happening with the estate since I am the administrator. I don't hear from anyone and I have a very stressful job in management made more stressful by my personal life. I love my husband and the shock is just wearing off after three months. He's gone, through his depression I just looked forward to the time when the man I danced with while we made dinner together, my friend who's shoulder I could rest my head on, my project partner who would stand by me to insure my safety as I hung curtains, my roadie as we traveled and he showed me new places, he's gone forever. My heart's broken and I'm angry too, then I'm guilty over being angry and I feel disloyal. No one calls me and my grief, sorrow and anger made it necessary I take a leave of absence from work. I am overwhelmed by everything and lawyers & accountants are so expensive I have to try and do as much as I can myself. I went into therapy and I'm in an intensive out patient program. I just finished my first week and it is helping, just having a break of sorts helps. I just feel so alone.
