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Copperpot

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  1. Lost my little poodle to cancer last week. I know what you are feeling & I am so sorry. I can tell you really had a close bond. I hope you can find the support you need here.
  2. Im so sorry Jakki. It really does feel like losing a part of yourself when you have to say goodbye. Its just all those little things they do & that constant companionship. Theres nothing quite like it. Joey has really kind looking eyes :-) Im sure he was quite a blessing to you. I know exactly how you are feeling.
  3. Thank you for the support & kind words. It feels so good to hear them. Its been a rough year for us. We have been trying to put it all behind us and move forward. Losing her is going to keep us stuck a while, but I know shes in a better place. I am so glad she is not in pain anymore. Here is one of my favorite pics of Daisy. When we first bought our house and the yard was all dirt. But she LOVED the huge backyard and just ran around with a smile on her face all the time.
  4. This morning we had to put our 11 yr old poodle Daisy to sleep. She was doing quite well, until very recently when what I thought was an injury made her limp around and yelp. She started having convulsions and screaming episodes & when we got her checked, we were given the run down on possible diagnosises..none of which had a positive outcome. We decided to end her life. Its so hard to know if we made the right choice. At 11 she did have a full life, but I really feel like it was sudden. We also lost our 2 yr old goldendoodle Chester this last summer very suddenly to encephalitis. Losing her has brought it all back up to the surface. She was truly my baby. She has been ours since my husband and I married 11 years ago. Shes seen us through everything and been a constant source of joy and love. She was the so smart, athletic, friendly. She was my perfect pretty little dainty lady with the heart of a lion. I am lost without her already. So broken. I dont know why, I just feel so alone. Even though we just went through this, I still dont know how to deal with it at all. My heart goes out to all of you suffering this evening..
  5. Its been a long time since Ive been on here. You all were so helpful for me in my grief about Chester and I am beyond thankful. I am now facing a new challenge. We had to put our 11 yr old poodle Daisy to sleep this morning. I know it was the right thing to do, but It hurts so deeply. My dogs are everything to me. I was completely unprepared to lose her so soon after Chester...
  6. Sorry, ive taken a little break from the site. I guess I just felt like I needed it. Its been a really busy time too, took a vacation and Ive been making halloween costumes when im not working. I just made one of Zero for someone who is dressing up their hairless cat for a nightmare before christmas themed wedding on Halloween! :-) Mia, Finn is fitting in so well. He is a little sweetheart. Playful & curious.. Cute as a button. He has found his place in the pack & everyone is getting along. He can be rather goofy, just like a doodle should be. He loves water & will jump in my bath if im not watching! He loves ice cubes too, chasing them around. He can be a little fearful, but we are trying to show him as many new things as possible. He got his first haircut & looks like a new dog now. All of the sudden his coat is pretty dark red! We completely adore him.. And he is helping me with my optimism.. I was feeling pretty down after losing Chester so suddenly. I still miss him so much, but I can see brightness in our future with Daisy, Cosmo & Finn. It has been a weird week or two over here though. We had a disturbing incident with coyotes that killed a neighborhood cat right on the side of our house. Later I actually saw the rather large coyote standing up on our back block wall just staring right at me....One of the scariest moments of my life. So now I go out with every dog every time no matter what! Im sure I will never feel safe out there at night again..ugh.. anyways, thought I would check in. Heres a couple pics of Finn.
  7. Something I miss about Chester...his perfect curly tail! When he wagged his tail, it stayed curled and was more like a vibrating tail. We used to laugh about it all the time. This is kind of a dark photo, but its a good one of the tail :-)) Also, this photo was taken just a day before he got sick, so it is kind of special to me.
  8. I am so sorry about the traumatic way Lucy left this world. It is noones fault. As much as we try, we cant control these outcomes. Everyone was doing the best they could and you made the right decision for your beautiful Lucy. Feeling that guilt is completely normal & it will pass. Over time you will remember more & more of the great times. The other doggies will adjust too, in time. :-)
  9. Beautiful poem..Made me burst into tears. I am missing my Chester so deeply tonight. Just fantasizing that I would look down & see him laying at my feet, hearing him sigh ? I like the line..i gained much more than I lost. So true.
  10. Carrie , you have been through so much and yet you have been strong in Christ. I know that He is close to the broken-hearted. My heart grieves with you. What a terrible thing to have a loss again so soon after Callie. I am praying for healing and peace for you and your family.
  11. I am so sorry you lost your precious lab. the special bonds you formed by seeing Karma through all of those challenges, they must have been very strong. I felt intensely bonded to our dog we recently lost as well and I am still finding it difficult to accept. My heart goes out to you. Hang in there
  12. I was thinking today about how much Chester made me laugh. I saw a video of a husky puppy that sounded like he was talking. Chester talked. He made all sorts of noises. Wish I had some audio to share here!
  13. Carrie, Im sorry I havent been on here in a bit and I missed all these developments with Beau. I know you all must be so desperately worried. Its been so much to deal with. I can only imagine. I will be praying for Beau and all of you!
  14. So terribly sorry for all of your losses. I know what it is to lose that "perfect dog". I feel that way completely. Id tell you your boy was gorgeous, but you already know that! Its such a rollercoaster. I have also hung onto my dog Chesters ashes. It takes a while to unravel all of the complex emotions that come out of this kind of loss. I hope you find some comfort in sharing on here. There are some great people on this site with wonderful suggestions!
  15. I do the same Mia, divide my life into Before/after Chesters death. I think I fear forgetting him. Even though I think about him constantly, he does feel so far away already. Just missing that day to day contact. Missing that spark he had. Its not something thats easy to hold on to
  16. Carrie, I just saw this about your surgery. Although it is after the fact, I will pray about it. I hope everything went very well. My mom had cataract surgery last year & has done extremely well with her new lens. :-) mia- i think its so cool that God chose to comfort you in those ways. I know He speaks to us in our time of deep grief. Giving us just the encouragement we need. It is so true, God is good! He has given me encouragement in so many ways. Especially in this site. Meeting all of you and being able to share. I am so thankful for it!
  17. Chester used to hang out with me everytime I worked out. Originally he relentlessly pursued licking the weights, a habit I finally broke him of around his 2nd year. I miss looking over and seeing him look at me with that guilty face as I would catch him.
  18. Hi, thank you for sharing what has to be a very personal & difficult thing to share. You may look at this situation as a reflection of who you are, or your ability to be trusted. The reality is that your intent was neither malicious, nor neglectful. You made decisions at the time based on the knowledge that you had, and did not intend for anything to happen to these kitties. Intentions are very important. The mere fact that you still feel something about these incidents offers an insight into what kind of person you really are. A person with a big heart, that cares about animals. I have struggled with guilt myself about things I did or did not do when my dog was sick. Even though I know beating myself up about these things is foolish. I would have done anything to save him. You feel the same im sure. Youve come to the right place here. We all know what its like to lose. Gods peace be with you.
  19. Mia, my heart is still heavy & I still cry often even though its been almost 2 months since we lost Chester. It just takes time, and sometimes, A LOT of time. I wake up every morning with a sinking feeling and if I am to be honest, I still feel guilt. There is no rhyme or reason to how we grieve. Sometimes you feel like youve turned a corner only to be back where you started. You are also going through an impending move which is emotional in and of itself. Some people have eluded to the fact that its easier to forget and move on. But I believe its better to remember often, no matter how painful. I wish you all the best today and in the days to come :)
  20. I know Marj. Its still an everyday thing for me as well. The memories creep in constantly. Praying for you again this morning. Hope you are doing well.
  21. Oh my, thanks for all the wonderful feedback :-) I actually cant believe I figured out how to use imovie. What a nifty little program that is. I would have loved to do this years ago for my poodle Cubby. I had to do the old school thing and make a scrapbook. I wish I had more video of Cubby as well. The wonders of iphones.. ??
  22. Im not sure if this will work.. But I was able to finish my little movie. You guys have seen some of this stuff already, but it was nice to put it all together. This music has always made me tear up..
  23. They are all so different. Which is actually wonderful! Our older poodle is a little spitfire. Shes so smart its scary. The first day I met her she was twice the size of her sisters & I soon saw why. When they were fed, they all waited for her to eat first she is so highly active, shes a little twig, even in at her advanced age. Our little poodle boy Cosmo could not be more different. Hes very shy, almost stand offish. He will not be bothered with trying to please anyone. Even so, he is naturally well behaved and never causes much trouble. Except a little too much barking at times. I love that Finn, while being very layed back, is not as shy as Cosmo. He is very smart so far, picking up on things in record time! They are all so great in there own ways. We do still desperately miss Chesters crazy energy. I was just thinking yesterday about how he loved ice. Whenever I opened the freezer, he was right there waiting. He loved to chase it as it slid along the floor... I am working on a little chester video on my iphone. I am not sure that I will be able to share it because of the size. I may jave to youtube it and then add a link... Once I finally finish it. Its been tough to do, and watch. I used some music from Up, the pixar movie. Those of you familiar with that movie will probably remember that music a bit.. Anyways, I will share when I finish it.. For today, heres a Chester puppy pic!
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