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Sweetpe1

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    April 22.2015
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  1. CaraLex0014 I'm so sorry your going through this sad time. I truly do understand your heartbreak. Losing someone your so close to is the hardest thing I have ever gone through. My mom was also perfectly normal at 69 years old. We always went shopping together and talked on the phone everyday . My mom actually seemed more healthy than me. She was still working at a school with handicap children . She was full of energy and seemed fine until she started with pain in her ear. She thought it was a simple ear infection. She went to several doctors and was given antibiotics but still the pain was there . So we found a specialist and was told my mom had a spot of cancer in her Jaw area. It was pressing on the nerves leading to her ear. Well the doctors assured us with surgery this spot of cancer could be removed. So to fast forward a bit within 6 months my mom ended up with two surgeries and still the doctors couldn't seem to get all the cancer out . It ended up spreading to her neck area on her Carotid Artery and took her life. It all happened so fast . I wasn't ready to lose my mom ,my best friend. Its been three years since she passed away but still seems like yesterday. Its been the hardest 3 years of my life grieving over losing her. Its a good thing I have a good husband by my side who supported me through this. Just recently I've decided I must carry on , find a job and get back to work. Maybe I should've gone back to work right away , it may have helped me with the grief I have gone through. CaraLex0014 Its going to be very hard to carry on , but you must do it. Try to be strong for her. Always remember the good times you had together , it will bring you smiles. I've asked myself why a thousand times , but only God can answer that , and we must not question him . Prayers Sweetpe1
  2. KayC I know it must have been hard to place your mother in a dementia facility but i'm sure it was for the best. It would have been a struggle to care for her 24 hours a day. Me and my two sisters were rotating 24 hours that last week before my mothers passing. The doctors did recommend a hospice care facility but my mom refuse to go. It was a struggle just for that week. There was no way we could continue for much longer. Every time we mentioned hospice my mom would say "but that's for dieing people and i'm not dieing". We would feel so guilty because we could tell she was't going to make it . She ended up passing away at home . I just feel so guilty about that but there was nothing I could do . If I would have brought her to the hospital they would have transfer her to hospice and I knew she didn't want to go there . It's just a sad situation . She was in a lot of pain at the last week so it does give me peace that she is no longer suffering. We will always have grief over losing our mother . Someone told me the other day that Life Must Go On . I will carry her memory forever. Heidi
  3. KayC I'm so sorry your mother suffered with Dementia. It is so sad to watched your mother battle a illness like this. As much as we want them with us longer it comes a time where god says enough is enough. My mother was going down hill about two weeks before she passed. I knew something bad was happening. I think the cancer was spreading quickly. The doctors didn't take another scan before she passed but I believe the cancer had spread to her brain. Just the symptoms that were happening lead me to believe this. I sit here and think about how it all started with a spot in the rear of her jaw. Then her ear started to hurt like an earache . It just didn't seem so serious as it turned out to be. I brought her to see a Oncologist who specialized with head and neck cancer and he said it was stage 4 already but was confident he could remove it all. After surgery my mom seem to be doing ok . She recovered well. But the ear pain came back and we knew something wasn't rite. After another surgery and a lot of chemo all the cancer did was spread. It all happened in just a year. My mom seemed more healthier than me actually. I have diabetes and a lot of other health issues. I sit here in disbelief that my mom is gone from something that didn't seem to serious. I hope you are doing well KayC and thanks for listening Heidi
  4. Degasgirl Alicia it is such a heart break. Life just isn't the same anymore. It's so hard when you are so used to calling your mother everyday and now she's no longer here. I You know the feeling. I recorded my moms voice mail off her cell phone before having it turned off. I listen to it often, Just hearing her voice makes me feel a little better. My mom was battling cancer but we really thought she would win her battle. She was strong and seem to be hanging in there quit well. Then all of a sudden I noticed changes taking place. All of a sudden my mom started showing signs of weakness and couldn't walk much. We knew something was changing but still didn't expect her to go when she did. Since my mom passed I don't sleep well at all. I have friends and family who try talking to me but I don't think they understand my grief. I'd rather talk to others like yourself who are experiencing the same heartbreak. Alicia I guess in time we will find peace . Until then my tears continue to flow. Heidi
  5. Degasgirl Its so hard to lose your mom,and your father must be so sadden without her. After being together for so many years he will surely miss her so much. I know you are grieving the loss of your mother also. I lost my mother April 22,2015 and everyday is just down rite grief for me. I feel your pain I really do and its hard. Maybe spending some extra time with your father could help him some. Just his everyday life with your mom he will miss so much. The simplest everyday activities without her will leave him in so much grief. He's going to need so much extra support to get through the loss of his loving wife for so many years. Prayers for you and your family Heidi
  6. ChrisD That is a beautiful song. I'm so sorry for our loss. I pray in time you find peace. It's truly a hard journey. Every hour of every day is grief for me since losing my mom. Prayers Heidi
  7. Hi KayC How have you been ? I hope you have been doing well. As for me its just so stressful lately . I just feel like a million and one things going through my mind . I feel so alone in this world without my mom. She was always there for me if I needed anything, I worry so much about making it in life without her. I'm so scared. I cant believe it's going on four months already . Time is just flying by and that upsets me so much. I wish so bad for my mom to come back but I know its just not possible. I'm trying so hard to be strong for my family , but sometimes it feels like i'm going to just have a nervous break down . Today just isn't a good day for me . Heidi
  8. Hello Everyone Thought I would check in to see how you all are doing . As for me I am still hanging in there. My days and nights are about the same. Still in deep thought and still losing sleep. Just trying to carry on without my mom is the hardest thing I've ever had to endure. Today me and my two sisters met with an attorney to file succession. It was a heartbreak but we held up pretty good getting through it all. I feel like the sooner we get through all this the better . How have you all been feeling ? Has life been getting easier for any of you ? I really hope it is . In time I hope it gets easier for me. Heidi
  9. huntk94 My heart goes out to you in your time of sorrow One of my sisters lost her only child during his teenage years. He overdosed himself with a medication. Her son was never a boy to use drugs so we don't understand until this day why he would do such a terrible thing. This happened on Christmas Eve 2004. Until this day we ask our selves why. He never showed any sign of depression or unhappiness . We wonder if he really wanted to die or was he experiencing with something he knew nothing about. My sister was divorced so it was just her and her only child alone. Its been eleven years and my sister still lives the nightmare of losing him. There are so many unanswered questions . Just Why. I pray for you to some how get through this terrible pain and broken heart. My mom just passed away almost 3 months ago .April 22,2015 from cancer. My family is experiencing so much heart break and grief of her passing also. It hurts so bad. Heidi
  10. KayC This is really taking a horrible toll on me. Tonight I sit here and such anger can over me. Tears running down my face. Telling my self There just has to be a way I can talk to my mom again. She cant be gone and never coming back. Is this really real . I feel like this cant be real. My god the sadness I'm feeling I have never felt before. I just cant accept this. Night after night I don't sleep. I sit hear and think and think . Heidi
  11. Hi everyone I just thought I'd drop in to say hello. Nothing has really changed much for me. Still the same grief and so much sadness in my home. MY sister came to visit because were still dealing with moms finances and belongings. We didn't get much of anything done . It's still just to hard on us . Mom was a very organized person . Everything she had was so well packed in storage containers and labeled. We were amazed at all the pictures mom had of each family member and there families .Every picture in certain photo albums and labeled. She had pictures of her parents and brothers. All so neat and labeled . Me and my two sisters spent hours looking trough the albums. We ended up leaving everything in her home again and decided to separate it at a later date. I guess we just hate to reach the point where nothing is there anymore. I'm sure once we sell moms house it will be a big heart break all over again. We will just take our time with everything. Hopefully in time we get stronger at heart. I pray for each of you also. I know you grief is just as sad as mine. Its not a good feeling at all. God Bless Heidi
  12. Hi Cujosgirl15 This is so wonderful to hear. I'm also glad you shared this with us. My mother passed away April 22,2015 . I would love to receive a message from my mom. Just something letting me know she's ok . I wonder if she's with dad and is she happy or sad. This may sound crazy but I'm so worried about my mom. This troubles me but this is the kind of things going through my mind. I just feel if I can get some kind of sign from her then I can move on. I guess its because I know my mom wasn't ready to leave us and didn't go peacefully . I'm struggling with the loss of my mom so much. If only she would let me know she's ok. God Bless Heidi
  13. Hello Jame57 and KayC I hope you all are doing ok. As for me I'm hanging in there . Seems like the days are just going by and before I know it my poor mom will be gone for months then years. It just breaks my heart to think about it. It seems like yesterday that my dad passed and its already 6 years. I've been slowly trying to pull myself together and trying to get out of the house some. I have 3 grandsons who play baseball for the local recreation park in our home town. I started to attend the games just to get out a bit. It was kind of hard because my mom loved to watch the grandsons play baseball . She would always call and say "Do the boys have a game tonight" . Mom enjoyed getting out and socializing some since dad passed away. It was an outing for her during her grieving stage over dad. Now its just me sitting without mom . It doesn't feel to good but I'm pushing myself for the rest of my family, I hope you all are doing ok . I know you must struggle also. As for me I continue to have the thoughts of mom during her last weeks before she passed. Its really sad thoughts . I hope in time some happy memories will come to mind. Prayers Heidi
  14. Hello everyone I'm dropping in to say Hello to all and I hope you had a nice 4th of July . As for me I'm struggling to get through each day. It's so hard to carry on with out someone that you love so much and who has been in your everyday life. It's truly a heart break . Myself and my two sisters are slowly going through moms belongings . Each time we try to split up some things it turns into just crying and we just stop and say we'll do this another day. I think this is the hardest thing I have ever endured. My mom has such a beautiful garden around her home . I know she would be upset if it wasn't kept up . Today I will get myself together and go water her flowers. It's things like this that must be done but causes such grief. I pray for each of you also . Heidi
  15. Hi KayC I'm sorry you had to witness the passing of your dog. I also lost a dog about a year ago. I had him for 10 years . For most people our pets become part of the family . Losing them is very hard to accept also. I keep thinking we must carry on in life and never question god. I guess god has a plan for all of us . Its just so hard to understand and accept. God Bless Heidi
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